Tired of Living

[Gadzukes]

I’m just so tired of living. I’m 75, immunocompromised and live with agonizing pain from Fibromyalgia and Psoriatic Arthritis.These past 2 1/2 years of trying to evade Covid has left me completely exhausted and ridden with anxiety and depression. But everyone else seems to have moved on. I just feel so alone. My best friend died 3 weeks ago, we had been friends for 60 years. I have a loving family which I’m so grateful for, so feel guilty for feeling sorry for myself. I just pray every night for God to take me in my sleep.

[Willow2022]

I’m so sorry to hear about your best friend passing. You are under a lot of stress due to health and social constraints, who wouldn’t be?!?! Try and remember that you are loved and your family cares for you. Do they live close? Are you able to get together with them?

[Gadzukes in reply to Willow2022]

They do if close but don’t see them too often because of their busy lives. Thanks for caring

[Oshgosh]

I’m so sad to hear about the loss of your friend.It will leave a big hole in your life.

I’m thinking about you this evening xx

[Gadzukes in reply to Oshgosh]

Thank you

[Oshgosh in reply to Gadzukes]

Be very kind to yourself xxx

[Hidden]

Oh No Girl, not so fast! I got a say in this & I’m flatly telling you No! Not yet anyway! You a bit older than me & I pay attention. You set the water mark. The longer you make it, me too. So definitely NO for now! I will be in touch. You take good care now, have a nice evening

[Gadzukes in reply to Hidden]

Thank you, your comment made me smile

[Hidden in reply to Gadzukes]

Thank You, for Reminding me of my own mortality. Little story. Was in a ambulance not long ago, the culmination of a week of suffering anxiety & depression. EMT looked at my age, smiled, then said, what you doing in here? ‘ Smiles again, ‘these are supposed to be your Golden Years!’ Just that set off bells & whistles in my mind. Better than any drug. Just something to ponder

[Louie35]

Reach out to your loving family, that is what they are there for. Wish you peace! In whatever way it may come!

[Gadzukes in reply to Louie35]

Thank you

[Jeff1943]

Has your doctor prescribed Methotrexate 15mg for the psoriatic arthritis and fibro. Worth asking

[Gadzukes in reply to Jeff1943]

Yes, had a bad reaction to it

[Jeff1943 in reply to Gadzukes]

That was probably because you took Methotrexate in tablet form. There is the option of self injecting once a week which bypasses the stomach. I use the tablets for Rheumatoid Arthritis and it works like magic.If it was me I would revisit Methotrexate but in injectable form. When it was first realised its huge beneficial effect on RA and PA it revolutionised the treatment of those forms of arthritis. Either way I hope you find relief before long.

[EndUser13]

I'm sorry to hear that 😞

Misery comes in droves. I think it's good to have some sympathy for yourself and okay to feel a bit down, especially after being dealt such a hard blow(s).

It's endearing that you are still able to find gratitude for the blessings you have in your life. I hope those blessings increase to the point you don't feel so down.

[Gadzukes in reply to EndUser13]

I’m definitely hoping so too

[PeaceNeed]

I know how you feel about being exhausted. If your family supports you it's because they love you. I'm 63 been suffering for awhile.

[Gadzukes in reply to PeaceNeed]

So sorry to hear you’re suffering too. Such a daily struggle.

[Midori]

Oh boy, do I understand that! I'm 74, with Fibro, PTSD and arthritic knees, asthmatic if I don't watch my triggers, and generally wearing out!

I moved 300km to Wales, but I still can't find my way around the place, as due to eyesight problems I can no longer drive, and I'm gagging to explore the place now the restrictions are relaxed!

I can find my way to the local Tesco supermarket, although most of my stuff is delivered. The McDogfoods and KFC are within easy reach too. Apart from that I go to the bank, which is about a mile away, and I walk with a rollator. Haven't even got to the next town yet! I've been here 2 1/2 years.

It's a lovely area, time I got myself an Over 60s Bus Pass, so I can broaden my horizons a bit.

I'm sorry to hear about your friend's passing. Many of us are facing up to the Ultimate Reality, but I intend to go out kicking and screaming!

Two years enforced house arrest ( for Covid), drove me nutty too.

I do have a friend who takes me out when I ask, but as she has an ill husband I don't want to be a nuisance.

You have found a good community here, we all have or have had depression and we can and will support you, if you want us to.

Cheers, Midori

[Gadzukes in reply to Midori]

Thank you Midori, enjoyed hearing your story. Feeling a bit better today. Had a major cry last night, and reading all the supportive messages on here has helped. Wishing you a wonderful day.

[HealthAnxietyGuy]

God bless you and so sorry for the lost of your longtime friend 😢.

I have been for a long time where you are now. I'm much better now. So know there is hope. I suggest you try probiotics, make sure you get your vitamin D checked because it is vital for immune function and metabolism. Mine was very low and corrected it since then and it helped me tremendously. Get your level checked as many people low.

I would also suggest to move to a whole foods plant based diet as much as possible. This is what will provide best nutrition and help with anxiety and depression tremendously along with Vit D and probiotics. Use calming herbal teas (chamomile with licorice, Holy basil, valerian, etc) / natural remedies which also provide nutrients at the same time as healing.

For me it was a very long process of a few years because my gut was so terrible it took long to recover and heal. I'm simply giving you this heads up not to lose hope when ups and downs occur. However, some people see the changes happen very quickly.

God bless and praying for you.

[Gadzukes in reply to HealthAnxietyGuy]

Thank you for the advice and prayers. So happy your situation has improved.

[misslillie]

I think I understand. I am 74. I have known pain of old age but at this time it is not chronic. Each night I pray the prayer my mother taught me as a child: Now I lay me down to sleep. I pray the Lord my soul to keep but if I die before I wake, I pray the Lord my soul to take. God bless... Then came a long list of people who I would bestow blessings upon. It is a pray of gratitude and a prayer of deliverance. I find it a comfort in my old age. I hope you do too. I will watch for your posts. I feel a kindred spirit. Perhaps you will too.

[mauv]

Hi Gadzukes, Sorry you lost your best friend. Part of your depression is grief so allow yourself to cry a river over loosing her. I am a 77 yr old women who has had depression since I was 21. My Fibro got bad 10 yrs ago and have sleep apnea for 25 yrs and IBS( chronic diarrhea) for 5yrs. I am a bionic women besides. I also have headaches. Yesterday I found out I have chaffing over the lens of my eyes. They are so dry I have to put drops in them every 1-1/2 hrs and wm moist compresses. After a month I will have my eyes rechecked and hopefully get a new eye perscription. I get discouraged when I rely on me but I have to rely on God. It is so hard to love myself in the depression but that is what God wants me to do and leaving when I will be healed to Him. Us older women need to stick together

[Gadzukes in reply to mauv]

So sorry it took me so long to reply, just kinda spacing out lately. We definitely need to stick together, especially now. Fibro is such an unrelenting bitch! God Bless you! Thanks for reaching out🤗

[PeaceNeed]

Hello GadzukesIm 63 and pray for same thing. No supportive family. GAD Dep ptsd people avoid me. City I live in over whelming.

[Gadzukes in reply to PeaceNeed]

I’m so very sorry❤️