tired of living

My last therapist closed my case for who knows how many times. I take that as my fault but at the same time. I still haven’t feel the same person as before. No friends, not achieving my dream job yet, nor being mentally stable and I’m still having fears of growing older. I’m still being forced to stay alive for nothing. My father is too busy with his life. My sister is too busy with her life, her boyfriend and her studies. My mom is busy with criticizing me everyday, yelling, having a mental breakdown and complaining about my sister or my dad. I’m tired of acting there’s life ahead when obviously there’s not. All I ever wanted is to be mentally stable, have friends, getting my dream job and living in a different country. I hate being forced to be alive.

[Shnookie]

if U live in the U.S., please contact 988 the crisis hotline. They R supportive and compassionate

[Hidden in reply to Shnookie]

I’ve already did that in the past and especially yesterday, they hanged up, doesn’t take my problems seriously, just basically doesn’t care or they just doesn’t know what to do. Just like today that they forget to do the follow up call.

I’ve already done it. I’m too tired to keep calling them for ending up with the same results.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

If you are feeling that bad, maybe you should go to the ER and ask for help. They can admit you and get you some help, medication, etc.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I’ve already did that in the past. I have to repeat the whole process again because I missed appointment with the outpatient services, I left them a voicemail and waited for their call until a month later. I can’t go back to the ER again due to college even after I finished the semester because I have summer semester.

[Shield_Of_Faith]

I'm sorry your struggling with so much. I hope you stay strong, as I've known its easier said then done. I know. But keep trying to reach out and get any type of help. Don't quit, I mean that. I really hope things improve. Things can improve even when you can't see whats in the future.I know I probably don't always say the right stuff but I just want to help you feel less alone. I'm hoping for the best. 🙏