Want to Change, but How?

[FauxxTrot]

I have major depression disorder and general anxiety and I've done so much inner soul searching tried medication and meditation to help my situation. I feel like I can visualize a better life with better habits that I believe would make me happier. I'm addicted to marijuana trying to cope and cover the feelings and it's so difficult to reset and get out of this hole. Am I wasting time and my life not "seizing the day"? I feel like I have so much to do but I can't get started and everyday has this big daunting "get your shit together" task looming over it that's crushing me.I have been trying to be patient with myself and give it time, but I feel like enough is enough.

Maybe I just need someone to listen, but I know I need help too. Thanks for reading any any words of encouragement or ideas or thoughts or emojis are helpful. I'm reaching freak out mode

[Sillysausage234]

weed will make your anxiety worse ,and depression worse when you’ve got none unfortunately

[Marysblue]

Lack of motivation is my main symptom of anxiety.

[Wakeboarder24]

I hate to say this but sometimes the marijuana is what is making you freak out. In my experience it feels good but the side effects are terrible including panic attacks.

[Pixiegreen69]

hi I understand what you’re saying. Lack of motivation is a big one for me and organizing my thoughts in order to get things done. I have a life coach who helps me with goals. I have a goal sheet where it has the main goal, and then three lines under it for tasks in order to achieve that goal. So you go through your mini tasks just break it down in a mini tasks and each mini task that you do get you one step closer to reaching your goal. This could be as easy as watering plants for me. My main goal is water plants. My mini goal is one of the kitchen plants. The next mini goal is one of the dining room plants the next mini goal, as well as the living room plants… Like that . She also says mini bursts work well where you clean in a meeting for us to clean some of your house and then you go and sit down and relax and then you do another mini burst re-clean maybe one other room and he just break it down and eventually it all gets done and there’s no rush in doing it . So if you have a main goal, set your main goal at the top and set your tasks that it takes to reach that goal broken down into doable chunks for you. What works for you. I wish I could send you the worksheet. It’s very simple but it’s very effective because I get overwhelmed and even the smallest calls like I said, what are the clouds doing dishes? I am cleaning the kitchen. Everything needs many goals for me to get it done I get overwhelmed if I look at the whole house and see that it needs cleaning but if I break it down room by room it’s easier to do. I’ve attached the goal sheet that I use.

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