I suppose I'm here just to rant, or seek company in misery, as nothing, NOTHING seems to help. I have been to hundreds of websites, I'm on medication and have been for years. I have struggled with depression and anxiety for over 20 years, but it only gets worse. Every time I think it's as bad as it can get.... It gets so much worse! And I'm tired, literally exhausted. What am I fighting for anymore? I'm a single mom with 2 small children. People say they are your reason to fight. But I can barely find the strength to get out of bed, I can't keep myself awake for more than 4 hours. I can't do anything with them and I have mood swings... I yell too much... They would be so much better off without me. The last 2 years I have lost multiple jobs... Every time I get a new one it seems great, then it's downsized, dept closed, whatever...i can't even afford to do anything for them. It's been an absolute spiral down for. 2 years and I can't do anything anymore. I just slept for 24 hours and this isn't uncommon (kids are with their father). I love them so much and I'm just ruining them. This isn't the mother I want to be and they deserve so much better. I can't try to live like this anymore. I'm fucking exhausted, I don't have any fight left.