everyday a massive stuggle

[Cimmy]

I’m struggling so badly with my mental health which in turn affects my physical health. I’m in such a vicious circle and don’t know how to deal with it. I’ve posted so many time and I’m sure I’m getting on everybody’s nerves because I’m getting on my own nerves. Another trip to A&E on Saturday night because I felt so poorly. They did a lot of blood tests and a chest X-ray which all came back normal, How!!! When I feel so rough. I’m now going to see my own GP hopefully tomorrow and lay all my cards on the table, I need to sort this just can’t go on anymore feeling very low, sorry for the long post again, I just need to get it out there to someone that will listen, my family especially my husband have had enough and given up on me, my children are frightened because I’m always ill, where’re don’t I go from here. My brain just needs to give me some peace please. I am so done with it all. Thank you for reading and sorry for laying it all on you. Take care

[LifeIsThePitts]

Until I started unpacking my childhood sexual abuse trauma and learning how my anxiety, treatment resistant depression, ADHD and all my health issues played off one another, I was just controlled by them. Always looking outside myself for something to "fix" me. Well... there's nothing OUT there to heal our pain...the fixing happens when we refocus our energy INWARD.

YouTube YouTube YouTube YouTube YouTube!! Teach yourself how to live with yourself. Dennis Simsek, the anxiety guy, has been my #1 anxiety teacher. You're suffering from health anxiety symptoms, yes they are 100% REAL. BUT!! They are 100% curable, too.

I'm almost 49. I've had 7 surgeries in 5 1/2 yrs. 4 spine fusions. Both shoulders rotator cuffs repaired and gallbladder removed. Couldn't walk without a cane or walker for nearly 2 years. My untreated mental health destroyed my physical health. I've been suffering since my mom died when I was 19... running from my disorders until they nearly killed me. I was going to end everything in Jan '22. But I ended up getting TMS treatment for my depression anxiety and lack of motivation. It's saved my life and I continue to receive maintenance sessions every month. But that's another story. I'm just trying to say that you can do this with the right tools and knowledge. But you have to learn how to change your habits, which will therefore alter your mental health trajectory.

Until I stopped thinking Drs and other people will heal me, I was never going to get better. That's the hardest part to grasp. There's not a pill 💊 or a medication that will save anyone from depression and anxiety. It's learning ABOUT the disorder and HOW it upends your personal growth and WHY you're suffering in the ways you are and WHAT you need to learn about yourself to mitigate those symptoms. My avoidant behaviors only strengthened the power they had over me. I had to learn how to face this head on before I could take a step forward instead of always retreating into the darkness of my own mind prison.

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Here's a link to one of Dennis Simsek's audiobooks. He's got hundreds of videos on YouTube. I KNOW 1000% he can help...if not, there's a plethora of other anxiety teachers to choose from. His Inner Child work is what hooked me. I named mine Bertha 💐🫂💕🍄 give this a try. You've got nothing to lose...but your anxiety.😉

[mayhem79]

I am so sorry you are feeling this way. I am in a similar situation. All of my tests keep coming back with good results but I am so scared to do anything and just feel like crying a lot of the day. My wife has been great about this but its not fair for her to have to watch our small kids and do everything while I lay around like a baby or a bum. I can tell she is getting very tired of it and I feel so bad for pushing this on her.

[PeaceNeed]

HelloMy family gave up on me and friends gone. I know how you feel.

[designguy]

No need to apologize for venting here, it feels good to do it and know that you aren't alone.

LifeisThePitts has some very good information/recommendations. It sounds like you may be dealing with health anxiety and could benefit from the youtubes/website of Paige Pradko, she is a therapist that had health anxiety/panic who healed herself and now helps others.

It also could be that your hormones, thyroid and adrenals are not functioning properly, they can cause or contribute to anxiety/depression if not so it's worth getting them checked out.