Terrific day. Truly truly terrifying. If i see a broker, i will scream. Im going insane

[Against_the_current]

I had a terrific day. A broker woke me to suggest me a place. I tried to sleep because I had an hour till i had to go to the doctor. Went to the doctor, got blood drawn, broker called right when i was getting blood drawn and my blood stopped running and the nurse was poking my vein and trying to get blood out of me. The broker said the flat was taken, i don't even have energy to take it even if it wasn't. Then i realised i forgot the money and ran to get them. Then called the other broker with my deposit, went there, they lectured me, trying to drink off my blood. Then when finally accepted, they asked for a receipt and i had forgotten it. Ran to get it again.

Mom called and started telling me i can't buy a house if im not working and i tried to tell her im tired from going to the doctor and the broker and she was fed up of my anxiety and i told her i needed to get the money from the broker to pay for the doctor and she said "But i gave you money!" And i paniced and i said i didn't have enough and then remembered i had but didn't plan deposit. Mom said "perhaps i have to take credit and buy it for you if you like it so much since you're unemployed, but i don't have a garant and i don't have whom to pay for your sister's education" emphasizing on how she's alone, husbandless and im useless. And i don't "like it so much" but that's what i have, i worry if she does something stupid

[Starrlight]

I’m listening. Sorry things are rough for you. Me too. Things can get so they seem overwhelming… then we take one step at a time. ❤️

[Against_the_current in reply to Starrlight]

Yeah, thanks. But sadly some people don't understand that. Like my brokers. They're predators. Said that that's life and if i can't handle it, i better jump off a building

[Starrlight in reply to Against_the_current]

That’s terrible to say. I’m sorry 😢

[Against_the_current in reply to Starrlight]

Yeah, the broker basically told me i can't handle life and should su1cide. The same way my friend tried to

[Against_the_current in reply to Against_the_current]

Oh no no. I ordered pizza to calm myself and at the exact same time my landlord arrived and he will probably think i don't use the kitchen and i have spare money for pizza

[Starrlight in reply to Against_the_current]

Sorry 😞 those people said that. Not true I hope they didn’t have you believing that in any way.

[Starrlight in reply to Against_the_current]

Well you have to eat. Don’t worry what he thinks.

[Against_the_current in reply to Starrlight]

Thank you. I really hate the timing and worry if he thinks that

[Starrlight in reply to Against_the_current]

Nothing can be done about it now so try not to let it continue bothering. I hope you enjoy your pizza.

[Against_the_current in reply to Starrlight]

Thanks

[Nothingnoted in reply to Against_the_current]

Let me put this in polite terms about this person when he said the S word he's a piece of crap. He's clueless heartless and a complete jackass shouldn't be making a statement like that especially about a nice person like you that jerk

[EndUser13]

My mom can be curious in a way, she'll be super supportive but also say ignorant, hurtful things that cut to the bone and I'm doing the best I can.

Remember- your problems don't define who you are as a person 🙂

[Against_the_current in reply to EndUser13]

Thanks. Yeah, she cuts to the bone. I feel like they do, like my anxiety has taken over me

[Nothingnoted]

I'm so sorry this happened to you but I will be praying for you kiddo I am here for you love, NN

[Starrlight]

Hi How are you doing today?

[Against_the_current in reply to Starrlight]

Hi. Thanks for asking. Still on critical

[Starrlight in reply to Against_the_current]

We’re here for you if you want to talk about it… and cheering you on!

[Against_the_current in reply to Starrlight]

Thanks. I need it. Since last Sunday im dying

[Nothingnoted]

I hope you feel better soon my friend you deserve to be happy healthy and relaxed and I'm so sorry you have to struggle with all these problems you're a great person to me and a wonderful friend love Nn

[Against_the_current in reply to Nothingnoted]

Thanks. Im still in this condition with no help. No doctors, no friends, no economic help

[SoporRose]

AtC,

I'm sorry, but I'm don't understand a lot of what you wrote. I think sometimes the blood you mention is literal and sometimes metaphorical. I didn't realize you were considering buying a house!

If your mom does buy one, if that's a possibility, would she let you live there rent -free? Sorry: I'm too confused to know how to respond.