I will die if im left without money

[Against_the_current]

Today the internet stopped for the interview, then i was trying to apply for an internship and i couldn't submit and it earased my 4 essays and a video i shot for it, then the oven stopped working, then went to my psychologist, got triggered. The worst is my sister told dad im about to get a job and he said he will stop my money. I paniced and called my psychologist, she told me to lie I didn't get the job and cutted me off. And now im panicking i catalysted him stopping to pay for me. Maybe not i but the job or sis

[Starrlight]

I’m also panicking today over things I can’t even control. I know it’s hard. Life is messy. Try to do what you have to and leave the things you don’t need to do right now. Listen to your body mind and soul and give yourself what you need for now. It’s ok if you don’t finish up all the things you need to figure out. I hope something I’ve said helps you.

I’m also really struggling. Keep writing if it helps. I know it helps me to let it out.

[Starrlight]

So you couldn’t finish the interview? There will be other opportunities.

[Starrlight]

Could you try to calm yourself through meditation? Or something else? I’m having calming tea and going to meditate now.

[Against_the_current in reply to Starrlight]

I really need. I tried to calm by texting and calling everyone i could reach but it got me feeling worse. I need to calm down. I took a klonasepam and am sleepy and anxious. I need to call down first and then get asked for solutions. Im feeling weirs because im still panicing but am sleepy

[Starrlight in reply to Against_the_current]

Maybe you can sleep it off. I hope you feel better soon.

[Against_the_current in reply to Starrlight]

Thanks. Felt a bit better but the next round of the interview knocked me off