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I can't even.....i forgot the word... Bankrupted. My world is shattered. My head hurts and I'm nauseous

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I can't even type. My head hurts like hell and i feel like throwing up. Mom came and said we don't have money and i should start a job or get disability status and pension. And that she's not responsible for me and dad will stop the child support for sis. My world is shattered. I tried to get a job and to work but i couldn't. She said the things i worry about that she won't be forever alive and is not healthy. I'm shattered. She said she needs to pay my insurance (i don't even have insurance) so i can go to the psychiatrist and ask for disability status and pension. Im scared if the commission doesn't give me the status. She would have paid my insurance for nothing. I can't even think. I feel like im on a boat. Dad broke us and moved out so he can get twice the salary he had while helping me in uni and now wants to give up? Does his baby have Gucci diapers? While here im basically disabled and i basically get myself sick eating trash and can't even go to the doctor or call an ambulance

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AllDone67 profile image
AllDone67

If you can't work, disability might be your best option. I don't know what the application process is like where you are but you may feel a little better once you have applied. It is natural to worry about whether or not you will get benefits but people take mental health issues more seriously than they used to. You are in my thoughts and I care about you.

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Rufus07 in reply toAllDone67

I’m in the US and it took me 2 years to get disability

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No_Longer_Human in reply toRufus07

Oh shiii... Hopefully here i get it fast. I just know i have to get my insurance back, go to the psychiatrist and her to send me for a week in daycare. Then i go in front of juries

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No_Longer_Human in reply toAllDone67

Thank you. Really it's my only option. Pray for me to get the disability status above 50% and for it to happen quickly

AllDone67 profile image
AllDone67 in reply toNo_Longer_Human

I will pray for you

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No_Longer_Human in reply toAllDone67

Thank you

Rufus07 profile image
Rufus07 in reply toNo_Longer_Human

You are in my prayers

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No_Longer_Human in reply toRufus07

Thank you

hypercat54 profile image
hypercat54

What happens to those who need healthcare but aren't working and can't afford it? Are you just left to die?

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No_Longer_Human in reply tohypercat54

Yes

Alpakka123 profile image
Alpakka123 in reply toNo_Longer_Human

Hi sweetheart,There is a Nat'l healthcare system here. This means that people have equal rights to healthcare regardless of income status. Bulgaria has national healthcare.

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No_Longer_Human in reply toAlpakka123

It has national healthcare but if you or your school or employer don't pay your insurance, your health benefits are stopped and you can't even call an ambulance

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Cat_cat44 in reply tohypercat54

What about insurance by county assistance? You can stay on it until you get back in your feet. You worked hard for it. I’m on it now. I’ve worked my azz off since it was 15, I’m now 45 so I paid into it

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Alpakka123

Hi sweetheart,

You say that you tried to get a job and work but couldn't. Yes, you tried. I'm proud of you for that!! Is that the only job out there, though? No. Are the tasks required to do that particular job be repeated in the next job. No. Every single job is different.

Your mom is right. She is not responsible for you. She was responsible for you when you were a little kid, but she isn't anymore. Easier said than done I know, but try not to worry about your sister; she has her own relationship with your mom. You need to sort out your life. Your life is the only one you are responsible for.

You keep mentioning how your dad broke you guys. You can't blame your situation on your dad. That isn't fair. You can be mad about it, but it sounds as though you are using him breaking you as an excuse for why things aren't getting better, and that's not fair. Family dynamics change; that's just how life goes. I can't imagine what you're going through having your parents divorced, so I'm not downplaying your situation at all. I'm just saying that divorce can be a part of life, and shouldn't be used as a blame for why things are hard. Life is hard.

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No_Longer_Human in reply toAlpakka123

Thanks. Well, i feel like mom went into that poverty and depression and drinking and heart disease and me into disabled because of him he moved out so he can have double salary. Is it so hard to send us a few?

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Alpakka123 in reply toNo_Longer_Human

You can feel that, but what we feel can be vastly different than what is the truth. I bet you anything that this is the case here. I don't have any experience with parental divorce, so the following is just a guess:

Your dad is required to pay child support because there are children involved. Children are, by definition, those less than 18 years of age. Once they turn 18 years of age, they are considered adults. Child support isn't given to adults. Your sister turns 18 soon, right? This is why child support is stopping.

I noticed that someone asked you why your dad would want to hurt you guys. This is a very good point. Why would he divorce your mom just to hurt you guys? (A question to think about; not answer).

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No_Longer_Human in reply toAlpakka123

He didn't think of the consequences - trauma for everyone, especially after him moving on, mom abusing us, mom getting sick, me getting disabled. I woke up from nausea and anxiety. I feel like the world is crashing down. It's not 18+ and your life is over and you're a perfectly functional adult. I shared with a friend and he said his parents are still paying for him, even though he's not mental like me just lazy, his parents said they have a duty for him even if he's 40. I still can't get over the shock. I had nightmares, nausea, I can't breathe and im panicking. We might be adults but we can't make income. Sis is at school

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Alpakka123 in reply toNo_Longer_Human

It has nothing to do with whether you feel adult or not; once you turn 18, you are an adult in the eyes of the law.Your dad didn't cause anything. He doesn't have the power to do that. If you are worried about your dad's motive for divorcing your mom and the "consequences" it set in motion, then you should talk to him about it.

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No_Longer_Human in reply toAlpakka123

He gets defensive. I barely have contact with him and this could cut the last ties and leave me all alone

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worthytobeloved in reply toAlpakka123

Brilliant reply!

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Alpakka123 in reply toworthytobeloved

Thanks, my dear!

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CLB1125

I think your mom is trying to make you see that it’s time you have to be responsible for yourself. Your mom may be right. If you are unable to work then disability is your only option. Why are you against applying for it? You need to be able to provide for yourself. Your sister will also be an adult soon. She will also have to provide for herself. Your father has fulfilled his parental responsibilities. I think until you stop blaming your father for all the problems in your life, you will never be able to heal. I’m not trying to be rude but you keep blaming him for everything that goes wrong with your life. I’m pretty sure he didn’t leave just to hurt you or your sister. Parents get divorced for many reasons but kids always feel it’s because of them in some way. It’s usually not. Listen to your mom, she’s trying to help you. I care about you. It’s time for you to start living a happy life.

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No_Longer_Human in reply toCLB1125

Thank you. She came and ruined me. I had finally stopped worrying over her and feeling guilty. And she always says "other families have dual income" and "he's stopping the child support". Also he broke me till disability and broke her till drinking. Is it so hard to send 100 bucks? I will apply for disability status but the new left my mind doing backflips and im scared if they say im just overreacting. I really can't work, i get sick when close to it. I don't even have insurance rn to start begging the doctors for disability pension. But i do realise it's my only option. And mom still will be sinking. The difference between the pension and child support is just 50 bucks and it will be coming to me. Even i will have hard time surviving with 150 bucks a month if i get them. I pray i get them. Sis is at school, she can't work

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Alpakka123 in reply toNo_Longer_Human

Hi sweetheart,

Do you have the power to cause someone to become disabled? No. Do you have the power to cause someone to drink? No. If you don't have these powers, then why do you think your dad does?

You're mad at him; you've made that very clear. You can be mad at him. That is your right. But can you use him as an excuse for staying stuck? No. Would he even want you to stay stuck? I highly doubt it.

Talk to him about your feelings. You say he'll get defensive; you probably know this from experience, right? Maybe he'll surprise you with his reaction, though. You never know until you try. I know you miss him because you've said so. This is completely normal. Remember my story about my dad? I was so angry at him when he re-married because I didn't understand what he was doing. Three years later and he's still prioritizing his new wife. I learned just yesterday that he won't be with us at Christmas. It's hard. I am in a place now though, where I am able to reframe each "blow". Among other rationales my siblings and I came up with is that rationale that "he already lost mom; he doesn't want to lose this lady too". I know it's a totally different situation from yours, but I think it's the same general concept. Your dad doesn't want to lose this new person.

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worthytobeloved in reply toCLB1125

Brilliant reply!

RLSSCARER profile image
RLSSCARER

Hi No longer humanI use to get sick from food especially when younger, foods like eggs would make me nauseated or cause me to vomit, foods that contain high antioxidants can be hard to digest, i found eating things like bread would help reduce the ill feelings.

Or consuming a variety of foods together can reduce the nausea

I know people who are no longer human, this often happens to my friends when they take psychiatric drugs and consume alcohol. Its not a good mix

The best products i would recommend for mental health starts with calamus, its banned in some countries, i use it almost every day in Australia really helps with sleep and has amazing health benefits.

Shi hu is a herd used to strengthen the stomach, its a nourishing herb used in Chinese medicine.

Mangosteen is also a product that has shown superior results in clinical trials for mental health problems.

Moringa can improve mental health outcomes and is very cheap to get, it's called the miracle tree, and can treat many health problems some people say over 300 hundred diseases.

Parasite cause many diseases 96% of all diseases are caused by parasite according to some experts.

Foid grade essential oils can be used to treat parasite, dr josh axe on YouTube has the information on that. Josh axe essential oils parasite cleanse.

I study treatment for encephalitis and encephalopathy these diseases cause serious mental problems, worse than others conditions.

These diseases cause a manifestation of mental illness every season for around 3 months.

It often get Treated with psychiatric drugs and false diagnosis are given, psychiatric medication does not stop the illness.

Its caused by parasites. Doctors make money by not treating parasites.

Parasite cause autoimmune diseases.

Treatment with food grade frankincense oil can remove the parasites from the brain, nutmeg, thyme are used

Remedylink also have some vids on detox with essential oils.

I hope some of this information will be helpful.

Good luck

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No_Longer_Human in reply toRLSSCARER

I appreciate the detailed information. Im scared now

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RLSSCARER in reply toNo_Longer_Human

Switch to positive thinking, positive affirmation, im getting better each and every day, you must load your mind thoughts with positive things, thinking negative thoughts will never help you.I do my best.

I am excited for the future

God loves me.

Find some affirmations and some meditation will help if you apply it.

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No_Longer_Human in reply toRLSSCARER

Thank you but i tried and i still woke up in panic and feeling sick

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RLSSCARER in reply toNo_Longer_Human

Also toe nail fungi can cause many problems with mental health illness.I used vicks rub to treat toe fungi, one of my friends never got sick again, it takes 3 months to get rid of it, treatment morning and night, until all gone then use a few times each week for a year, then reduce to once per week, toe nail infection are common problems for those who suffer mental health issues. Especially women, i have 5 female patients who all get sick every year, i have had success at stopping the constellation of symptom occurring for 5 years now.

Essential oils will also work for toe nails infectious.

Theres over 300 different infections caused by parasite or infections that can cause hundreds of different diseases. 7000 rare diseases are often caused by infection that go untreated by doctors. Disease management and treatment of symptoms, may work in the short term, but long term issues can occur.

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No_Longer_Human in reply toRLSSCARER

Fortunately i don't have such fungi

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majones_0608

Wow. I can't completely say I am in the same boat, but I have definitely experienced no money. For years I had no money for the most part. Luckily I live with my parents so I didn't have to pay rent at the time, but now I do. I have to pay rent every month with the Supplemental Security Income I get from the government which basically is disability. I have to take expensive medication all the time, but thank God I have Medicaid health insurance or I would not be able to afford my med. Because of my disability I qualify for SSI and Medicaid. I will pray you qualify and will get approved. I wish you the best of luck.

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No_Longer_Human in reply tomajones_0608

Thanks. I want to do the same. I really need to qualify for this because otherwise i can't see a doctor or a psychiatrist and can't get my meds

david2424 profile image
david2424

Hang in there.

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No_Longer_Human in reply todavid2424

Thank you

You say you tried to get a job but couldn't Think about trying again. Any kind of job, even if menial, will get you a source of income and, it is hoped, distract you from the difficulties in your life. Check with the powers that be to see if your case for getting disability has merit. If they say it does not, forget about the insurance and thereby spare your mother the expense. Your psychiatrist will, of course, have to be convinced of your status as disabled, and can be an ally in your quest for benefits. You feel like you're no longer human, but you are. To be human is to feel lost, anxious and depressed from time to time. We all experience these feelings. Have hope, be positive, and know that all of us here at HealthUnlocked are pulling for you. God bless.

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No_Longer_Human in reply toSameTimeTomorrow7

Thank you. I thought so, i tried but it gets me sick litterary

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