And please don't tell me she's hurting.She sent me a text and i showed it to my friend and my friend confirmed it's manipulative as hell. Dad said he can't pay her phone bills no more and she's getting a new phone plan and a new phone and she's gonna give it to me for Christmas and get my old phone. I said okay. Now she texted me but i didn't see it so she called me to tell me to choose to get phone or money and i was really confused and she said read what i texted and in text she said she can't give me both because she's A SINGLE MOTHER and SHE WORKED IN UNIVERSITY, always the same single mother shit. I hurt when i hear it. And i told her i NEVER expected her to give me money and im fully satisfied with a phone exchange and If i need, i will ask dad. And what a coinsidence mom and Grandma told me in the same day that others work during university. Im mentally sick as hell, nobody wants to hire me. Also i'm studing for a phychologist, i need lisences to work. And they're not the ones worrying about me having money, dad is, and i asked dad should i work, he said he wants me to focus on study and that im a straight A student and this is an investition. Talked with my therapist, she said my ego is crushed. My self-esteem is crushed. I talked with my therapist, went out with a friend, and still can't recover from mom and Grandma. And Tommorrow im going to them for Christmas.
Btw im giving her this phone, i need to hide everything i wrote about her and everyone and i'm worried. I will get paranoid about her finding something.
Btw this friend invited me to hang out with her and her boyfriend on new year, idk whether i stay here and go there instead of going home after Christmas.
These decisions are killing me. Money or phone. Go or not. With my friend or with mom and sis. I'm off my limit. Couldn't even eat all day.
