Had a nightmare about mom going insane because she's single and dad has another family. The nightmare was really scary. She stalked him, murmured about him , and found out they are going on a vacation and was searching for a way to sabotage it. Then she locked grandma on the balcony and shoot me so she could keep dad in town. I just said "who's gonna take care of sis if you shoot me? They will think you're dangerous. She has just two years left, should she be living in institutions". Mom was like "i shoot you, your dad misses the holiday, and then we ressurect you" while taking a sip of her beer. Then she shot just my schoulder, saying an injury should be enough.Im having insane headache and nightmares. What if something is wrong with my brain? What if the veins in my brain are clagged?
I talked with my therapist yesterday but no time for this. Twice a month for half an hour. Tomorrow i have with my old Freudian therapist and wondering whether to cancel and whether she makes things worse but idk