So i told you i randomly wake up at night. Mom said it was because i had rested but i didn't feel like that. She went to work. I started having insane headache and everything was irritating me. I went to sleep. I had really vivid nightmares about dad and his new family (my biggest ptsd trigger) and him calling her "my wife" instead of name and buying her a car and going to the UK (since she mentioned 4 years ago she wanted to drag him to where she came from, im really scared). Also in front of mom and her being broken while sis and grandparents defending dad.Do i need to visit the psychiatrist? Which therapist to pick? Should i stay home because of my condition but mom's gonna be off work? Can i heal? Why does my head hurt? Can i work? What if the psychiatrist messes up my meds or if i can't get on the new and stop the old ones? Bulgarian psychiatry is weak. What if there's something wrong with my brain? My brain will stop developing after an year. Why can't my parents understand what they did to me?
I'm overwhelmed. I want a favourite person to vent to.