Had a terrible nightmare

[Against_the_current]

I fell asleep at like 2am and am waking up now at 5 pm. Idk why i slept so long. Im so stupid, i should have woke up. I wasted the day at this horrific nightmareI don't remember well. I just remember how dad kicked mom and she fell on the ground with head bleeding, probably dead. So it all began when dad came and asked for pants for him and his wife. I got triggered by him saying "his wife" in front of mom and us. He told me to take my meds. (Why does my whole family descriminate me for me my meds - im either a drug addict or am crazy and my psychological hardships are invalid) . I was trying to tell him it's not because of me being insane, it's psychological trauma around him. But he refused and he was telling me to take cosmic doses of my meds. I started running to find a lawyer and a psychiatrist to tell him this isn't right. Mom was trying to defend me. I couldn't find. He asked me to take more meds. I was running on a bridge and was thinking i need to jump but i don't have the guts to. Sis was following around being chill. Mom was trying to defend me. Then dad said im 32. Im 22. And he said i don't look 22 and im old and should take care of myself. His wife was looking more like twenty something. She really is twenty something. He insulted me. Then kicked mom in the head and she fell with all her head covered in blood, probably dead. That's the nightmare. I woke up and it was getting dark outside. Im terrified. These nightmares don't stop

[Peacely]

Certain medications can make nightmares worse. I like to read scriptures or do affirmations before bed calms and reassures my mind and then my dreams are better.

[Against_the_current in reply to Peacely]

I just hope it's not from my medication. Finally found something that works for me when im awake. My psychiatrist will get sick of me. I agree stress before bed has a lot to do. Will try to do affirmations or something like that to calm before bed. Thank you

[Blunderbuss_bumpkin]

That sounds like a horrific nightmare, it's so bad when it's in a real setting and so vivid, you can't tell what's real or dream. I'm sure you know that the nightmares are more common the more stress you are under, it's so annoying because it just makes everything worse. You can't let it get to you, it's not real, you must push through. I know you can do it. You survived the real traumas so these fake ones have nothing on you! You are so strong and I admire you for it so much! Keep going!

[Against_the_current in reply to Blunderbuss_bumpkin]

Thank you. I really need support so bad rn. My therapist says nightmares are some real stuff in and i feel so bad hearing this, i thought they're just from excessive stress. I feel so tired and stressed and tired of stress. Every night they come

[Blunderbuss_bumpkin]

Unfortunately we don't really know much about dreams, some people believe they have meaning, some people even believe they can tell you the future. In reality we don't really know what they are but they are definitely not real. To me it makes perfect sense that the more stressed you are, the more likely you are to have distrubed sleep and bad dreams about whatever you're stressing about. I have also personally noticed that the more stressed I am, the worse I sleep and the more night terrors I have with a very strong association.

I know how much you care about your family and how worried you are about them getting along, it's a really honorable thing and you shouldn't have to be punished by your mind for it. I also know how concerned you are about what others think of your medications, you shouldn't have to worry about that, the drugs that you are taking are prescribed for a specific purpose that you really need them for and they are specifically manufactured by reliable producers for absolute purity and you only take a few of them. Compare that to the food and drink they eat which is saturated with chemicals for a far less noble cause and far less concern about their safety and purity. We even spray our vegetables with a cocktail of chemicals. We eat yoghurt which is literally made by bacteria and bread which is made by a fungus. No-one has any reason to criticise you for your medications and you don't need to listen to anyone who does criticse you. Taking medication is the responsible thing to do, you know what you are putting in your body and what it does and it shows that you are addressing and attempting to manage a health issue. My dad refused to take medications, instead opting for natural remedies, and it literally killed him so people criticising medication really annoys me (sorry for the rant).

Anyway, this has been far too long😅, my only advice is to try and reduce average daily stress but of course that's not easy. I don't watch the news anymore because it gives me too much stress because it's always about tragedies. I even stay away from sad music because it gives me emotional stress. That's the only thing I can really recommend. I'm sure the nightmares will ease up with time and I have complete faith that you can battle through them. You are a wonderful person and deserve only the best, you are so kind and considerate of everyone and you are caring to a fault. If anyone deserves to get better, it's you. I have absolute faith in you and your strength, I believe in you and know you can do it and will be following just behind you for the whole jouney

[Against_the_current in reply to Blunderbuss_bumpkin]

Thank you so much! I really needed this. I'm criticed from everywhere and it's making things worse because i care about people's opinions and thoughts. You're helping me so much and im grateful for every line and you're free to talk everything that comes to mind, you know mom called me "a drug addict" for taking meds and dad only says "take ur meds" when im upset or have a real reaction to the bs he does, he just thinks im psychiatrically sick, not that im done wrong, and he sees "my sickness" as a flaw and sth permanent that he is so "generous to love me despite of this chronic illness/flaw". Gaslighting everything that i feel. I told him a real problem with mom, he gaslighted me telling me it's all in my head and he s tired and im probably schizophrenic, sis was mad, she texted him what happened and that even worse things happened when i was in the bathroom and didn't even saw them and how mom told her terrible things. Mom found out this and was mad. And sis was just trying to defend me. It's so damn hard. It's 4am and im spiralling again. It's not like i don't worry of side effects, i do, and with people telling me my meds can be making the nightmares im troubled. Im really really scared something is wrong with my brain. I have constant headache and nightmares and can't neither sleep nor stay awake. Im scared, i have high cholesterol and maybe a vein got claggered or something in my brain. Im sorry if it sounds medically irrocect, i hope it is. I worry it's not only stress and something's really wrong with me and my brain. Thank you for being here. My "friends" just ignore me and say im annoying. I just stay alone all day, feeling unreal