I'm dy1ing have sprayed knee, a virus and mental health issues. No support from my parents

[Against_the_current]

Mom says one thing that upsets me and then dad lectures me how this is wrong and makes me believe the exact opposite phylosophy and then mom comes again.

I hate it how always freaking always someone "has it worse". In the hospital my roommate had it worse, at home mom had it worse. And i don't even have strong medication to drug away the tears, emotional and physical pain. I wake up and i want to cry. I can't even get to the bathroom and mom gets upset. I'm freaking d1ying and everyone is lecturing me instead of supporting me. And i have to fear losing them if i keep it up. I can't live like that. I'm going insane. And i still have university and courses.

My mom is saying she's going insane from stress. Instead of calming me now i worry about her. And if she's so stresssed i worry if she drinks or if she breaks. It's not my fault my sister has asthma. I can't share with nobody, they just get upset. I have to keep my mouth shut what a connection. I really worry about her. Yesterday tried to tell dad he just scolded me. I tried to tell my therapist she said i fell on purpose and that we need to work. We worked for 3 damn years and im only getting worse. My other therapist just gave me an appointment for 27th. Nobody knows empathy. Mom says she has it worse and drives me triggered, dad scolds me, therapists are insane. I just hope mom calms down. I got upset over my knee and she made it worse saying she's breaking. How could I break my leg while home is a battlefield?

[SoporRose]

I wish I knew what to tell you. In your last sentence you write that you broke your leg Is it broken or sprained? When does your doctor say you'll be able to walk again?

I hope you heal soon.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

Sprained, I'm just losing words in English from stress

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

Stress will mess with both your body and your mind. I’m with you: snow is not to be trusted.

When do you see the doctor for your knee?

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

Mom said we're not going to the hospital again because it's in university city and because they wrote i have a surgery while i don't. She might take me to a doctor here but I'm scared. The doctor might say im fat and i need exercise (not understanding my mental health issues) and mom hearing that will start calling me fat and giving me household and tasks for "exercise because im fat and lazy"

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

The doctor might say that or just suggest you exercise more or might not say anything about your weight. But if you avoid the doctors, you won’t get the care you need.

[Hest19]

I don’t know your story behind what you explain is going on now but connecting in a group therapy might help see things more clearly. They have 12 step programs for almost everything these days, even online if you’re not able to get out. Your parents sound like they’re dealing with their own form of dysfunction, whatever that may be. Maybe they’re just overwhelmed; it’s good to give them the benefit of the doubt. I don’t know how you ended up in the hospital or broke your leg but I’m sending well wishes that it heals quickly, and that your pain is resolved. Praying for you. 🙏🏻

[Against_the_current in reply to Hest19]

Thank you. Yeah, they are and im fully dependent on them which makes it worse. I slipped on ice. I hate snow now and im afraid of walking. I don't have money. Also im graduating soon and I will be left without funds