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[Adamj]

I’ve reached the stage of anger like really angry I’m starting to tell people off family members other people I’m frustrated I’m not angry in the sense I want to physically hurt anyone I’m just telling people how I feel especially when family members know what I’ve been going through the hell of it but will reach out to me and ask if my mom is okay but don’t say shit about me or ask how I’m doing like yeah I’m fucking doing great ya know seeing your mom deteriorate yourself deteriorate doctors not listening fuck life it’s the greatest gift but also the greatest hell

[Agora1]

Adam, it's normal to feel this anger, not that it makes it easier to accept.

I'm glad you use this platform to release that pent up frustration. It's a lot

that you are going through and I'm so sorry about that. Keeping you and your

mom in my thoughts. You know we all care about you xx

[Starrlight]

Adam ((((((((((((((((((hug)))))))))))))))))))))) people sometimes don’t understand what it’s like, they can’t comprehend what intense pain we are going through… it’s frustrating and maddening to go through such pain and be ignored.

I hope you get beautiful moments of relief.

You are so strong remember… even when you don’t feel it.

[Raggedy-Ann]

Hey Adam, I helped my boyfriend get through Acute Myeloid Leukemia. I was doing everything for him, helping him survive. He had a 5% chance of living. Whatever happened it was urgent. I would only leave to shower, do laundry and get water. I was exhausted and invisible. I lived in the hospital room with him. I barely slept as when things went wrong at night, the night nurses were slow to help. He was scared and sick and sometimes mean. He had no idea how hard I was working for him.

When someone close to you has their life is on the line, you and your needs will not be noticed or met. It is hard to deal with that emotional stress and having it come out physically. You really need to manage your stress level. Your mom needs you and you need her. Find ways to take care of your self. You seem to be caught in a mobius loop of stressing out because you feel terrible, which makes you stress, sick, stress... break the cycle. Rather than focusing on how bad you feel, do things to help you feel better. Deep breathing to slow down your heart, soak in the tub to relax your muscles, eat healthy food and drink lots of water. Try to give out positivity. Speaking in complaints is not effective. Thank your arms, pat them and hug yourself, thank your heart for keeping you alive, this is a great exercise. You have all your limbs and they work, thank them.. exhale every time you say thank you, visualize with each exhale that all that negative anxiety is being released. You can handle this.

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I can put myself in your shoes and try to understand where you are coming from. I know you must be so stressed out and worried about your Mom. We do care about you on here. Getting all worked up and angry isn’t going to help you or anybody. Try to do some self care techniques. Take a long shower and do some deep breathing. Try to calm down. Take one day at a time.

[StardustHunter7]

Honestly I don't have advice because lately I've been standing up for myself when I used to be a doormat. With that comes anger. Anger at everyone who wronged you but mainly anger at yourself for allowing it. I get it man. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm