Background to my main issue:
The last couple times of gone over to my friends house I’ve been getting these vibes from his mom like I’m unwelcome there but she lets me come over because I’m friends with her son. I consider him family and he says he considers me family as well. I’m not the type of person to walk into someone’s home and be disrespectful and rude. I ask permission for literally everything I do so I don’t see how I might of disrespected her.
Issue:
I don’t know how to approach my friend about this because the major part of my anxiety is assuming that everyone hates me. Example I’ll be walking down the isle at a store see two people talk and I just read the anxiety voice in my head tell me “They’re talking about you. They’re saying how much they hate you.” And they’re people I’ve never seen or meet before or people I used to know back in school. So it terrifies to confront someone and talk to them about problems like what I mentioned above due to that reason. I don’t want my assumptions to be correct. I don’t think I could mentally handle it if I did approach my friend asking if his mom has a problem with me. I love his mom, her and I had a great relationship up until recently when this all started happening. But I told a mutual friend about how I felt (the anxiety thing about everyone hating me) and she just laughed and said everyone you hang around loves you so that’s when I felt like a freak. I think the laugh is what hurt the most.
I just wish I had someone to talk to about this. No ones what it’s like. Some people think it fake and others just try to laugh it off like your being irrational but I have no control over it. And I just feel alone. I wish I never had anxiety or depression or PTSD or any of this.