Old me

[ashleybakerr01]

I miss the old me before meds. Like I know im still me, but i just feel different. I miss how ii could at least go out without having anxiety attacks almost every time. I don't miss the depressive episodes though. Change has always scared me and im really not sure why. Ive hated change all mt life. Im used to taking care of myself and dealing with the thoughts and all on my own. The citalopram im on helps a good bit with my depression , just still have Some bad days, which is normal. The anxiety was absolutely HORRIBLE for almost 2 weeks now , not as bad now. But i still get them often more then id like. I still get some burning feelings in my skin randomly and i have to convince myself its just a side effect and calm down. Im still pushing a few more weeks to see if there's a change because I know it can take 4-6 weeks for full affects to start and hopefully no more side effects. If not, i plan on hopefully just coming off it and going to without meds again. Im not sure if i made any sense so sorry for the rambling

[padfoot24]

Don't apologize! Feeling like that is always really difficult, especially when starting a new medication. Talking about it is never easy, especially when it's about feelings like anxiety, putting your thoughts and feelings into words is super hard. I think it's really smart and brave of you to give it more time to see if you start to feel better. In my experience, if feeling that way on medication is upsetting and not helping as much as you think it should, it might be beneficial to try a different type of medication! There are many different types of medications and SSRIs to treat depression and anxiety, and they affect people differently. Trying something else can sometimes help a lot, I know it did for me. Talking to a doctor about that might help them understand why you're having these feelings on that particular medication, and what might better suit your mental and psychiatric needs. Good luck, and I believe in you!

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to padfoot24]

thank you

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feels good to vent

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to Hidden]

It does

[secrets22]

I hear you...I had been on anti-depressants all my life and yet i still felt anxious and depressed ,and the last med i was on was Sertraline and it did not improve my mood.

I ditched all my prescribed drugs 3 months ago and bought KSM-66 Ashwagandha and i must say its been a good move as i feel so much better overall.

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to secrets22]

what's that? But yeah meds just don't seem to have much effect on me.. But I'm still pushing through, even though it's really tough.