I posted yesterday but wanted to post again. I’m just feeling at a loss of what to do. I’m almost on week 6 of my medications and I still feel like an emotional mess. Suddenly my anxiety and depression are back. I could hardly leave my bed today. Dark thoughts creep in and out. I’ve been dealing with feeling disconnected and not myself since thanksgiving time, and I’m just so very tired. I miss being able to connect with people. To go about my day. I had to take short term disability because work was impossible. I’ve had blood tests to see if I’m deficient in anything. I’ve had my ears and eyes checked. I meditate. I pray. I hope. Nothing seems to be working. The meds helped for about two weeks but now I’m back to feeling incredibly sad and lost again. Sometimes I feel like my psychiatrist isn’t listening to me when I ask about the potential for a new medication, or that maybe I shouldn’t take Lorazepam every night. Im just at a loss. Sometimes I wish I was just admitted to the hospital so I could get more help. I just want my life back.