Update on surgery Monday. Not good

[Caseopia]

i hope you all dont mind im posting my surgery update. Its been a nightmare. I had shoulder surgery monday. The doctos administered steroids which is on my medical records as an allergy as they put me into psychosis and make me suicidal. My actions under the psychosis are out of my control. The doctors were aware and confirmed no steroids would be used. I called a crisis line. They advised to call the doctors after hours emergency line. I did. Recieved call from surgeon an hour later however did not hear the phone ring amongst my screaming in rage. He left a voice mail advising he did not give me steroids. This morning (tuesday)Tuesday, the nurse called and confirmed the doctor did make an error and did in fact give me steroids. The psychosis started at 5 pm monday. By this time tuesday,, i had to call 911 and be taken to the emergency room for psych evaluation. I was going to kill myself and thank God, i had support on the phone through the night every minute anddid not hurt myself. Im still out of sorts but the suicidal feelings aregoing away. I know i need a psych hospital impatient but they do not have the capacity to deal with my case as im just out of surgery a day and need to be under a physicians care, with meds and shoulder brace, etc. So i cannot go to hospital inpatient due to the surgery. I'm so scared it will come back. It can take a week i was told to go away. I can't sleep. Im angry. Im holding on to any hope i have. Im so scared. Sorry for this long post however thank you for letting me share.

[Sillysausage234]

hope the shoulder is better soon

[Caseopia in reply to Sillysausage234]

thank you so much

[Mom2PCat]

I'm sorry that you are having so much trouble. I do know that frantic feeling. I hope that you are not offended if I offer to pray for you. Please continue to post what needs to be shared. It isn't always the best option but it does help at least a little.

[Caseopia in reply to Mom2PCat]

im not offended by the prayer. Thank you. I really need it. Now I'm really manic.

[Mom2PCat in reply to Caseopia]

just breathe... Put on some light music and concentrate on finding some peace.

[akbj]

That's really awful having that occur when you're unable to be in-pt. I had a strong reaction like that to gabapentin many years ago. I began seeing things, people etc & hearing voices & music, then it kept getting worse over the next week, I was feeling like people were sitting on the edges of my bed or chair & moving around, then it developed into awful odors. I still remember one specific song, it was by Nirvana. Over & over again. For some reason I just accepted that I was going crazy & was strongly thinking about suicide & finally told the psych Dr who had prescribed it. He admitted me to the psych unit in the hospital he worked out of right away & I was there for a week for a lot of tests to rule out a brain tumor etc. They took me right off the gabapentin & the hallucinations gradually left. That was my first time ever in the mental health unit, maybe 20 or so years ago. Then a year later the same hallucinations returned after I took some antihistamine for a cold. It was actually worse. Back to the hospital again for another week. It was even scarier though I sort of knew what was going on. I remember a man who was constantly chasing me to try to kill me in various ways. It gradually left again & I've never figured out if it really was the gabapentin or just something else.

Your surgeon has a lot to answer for making that kind of mistake then denying it. At least if he admitted it & tried to help you get some care for it that might help. I actually can't quite understand why they won't admit you to the psych unit even with the post surgical issues. If they discharged you home after your surgery it's hard to understand why they couldn't admit you to a psych unit. There should be a Dr on call at the psych unit along with psychiatrists who are medical doctors. The psychiatrist & nurses at the psych unit should be able to handle your meds it seems like. Does your hospital have patient advocates? I understand you're probably not really able to advocate for yourself at this point though.

I hope the scary symptoms are becoming less & less with time!

Take care of yourself.

[Caseopia in reply to akbj]

i too had side effects like that from gabopentin. It is on my allergy list. I'm glad to hear youyou made it through it even tho it must have been difficult. I think I'mgoing backto the er to be admitted. I need to be monitored. Right now I'm just really manic, panic attacks and insomnia. The suicidal thoughts thankfully have subsided.