not a good day

[hlangdon]

Well i had my dr visit today and was told she doesn't want to put me on any meds that are addicting. And from What I got from her I shouldnt be on any meds period. UGH. She already knows that i had some days of thoughts of harming myself. With all that has been going on since the beginning of last month with the eviction. Still waiting on office of temporary assistance to assign me a social worker to help me out with housing. The person I saw for common ground before my appt told me that if i call temporary assistance let them know I"m sleeping in my car they will call shelters right away and if they are full they will put me up in a hotel. I was even told that once i signed up for medicaid and food stamps they should have assigned me a social worker. Already had a couple of bad experiences with temporary assistance when I first started with them. At this point I'm so scared, confused and still have no where to go. Was also told to call 211 and ask for emergency shelters

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Do you feel you need medication to control your thoughts? If you do, I'd suggest trying to find another doctor who is willing to prescribe things to help you. As to housing, I have no experience in that field. I hope everything works out for you soon!!! Good luck!!!

[hlangdon in reply to Hidden]

I take prozac to control my anxiety but lately its been worse due to the eviction notice i got. Just worry now that I may hurt myself in the near future. She didnt even care about the thoughts

[Hidden in reply to hlangdon]

If meds help you, and you are having harmful thoughts, I would definitely say change doctors. It sounds to me like you need a higher dose at the moment, not less! Why is she so concerned about addicting drugs? So long as the dose is controlled and it is not abused and you are aware you may become dependent on it, it shouldn't be an issue. (I'm in no way a qualified doctor, so just my opinion and things I've learned) Your doctor should be concerned about your well being first and foremost. It does not seem to me like she is displaying that

I don't know if you mean self harm or the s-word, but either way, it isn't worth it. Try distracting yourself when thoughts like that come up. Read a book, listen to (not sad) music, or watch youtube or a show if you are able. You said you are living out of your car, but you have some sort of tech to post on here, so if you can watch funny cat videos or some other funny/positive thing, that's what helps me the most when I get urges. If you can't do that, try to find someone to talk to. If not talk to, just be around. Go to a nearby McDonalds or convenience store or public place and just be near people (unless people make you anxious) (I don't know lots about your situation, so if I get something wrong, please forgive me) so you aren't alone with yourself. You can read when you get there or just hold a book or a phone if you are worried about looking odd just sitting there.

I don't know if any of that even made any sense, but I hope I said something that may be able to help?

You are worth it and you matter. Hugs. Stay strong.

[hlangdon in reply to Hidden]

HI Sad Slytherin, guess she thinks I shouldn't be on any medication. I may change once I find new housing for myself. As for self harm I mean cutting myself. I already got threatened by my cousin if i hurt myself he wont speak to me again. I cant loose him right now because he is the one i can call and just vent and go into tears with.

[Hidden in reply to hlangdon]

Ah. I hope you feel better once you get new housing. !!! That's kind of not a good way for him to deal with it! Threats would just make my anxiety worse! I hope that he sticks around for you, no matter what. Obviously, self harm is not a healthy practice, but even if you succumb to the urge to, you can always get back up and keep moving forward. I'll be praying that things turn up well for you soon. You've got this.

[RiderontheStorm]

It is better not to be on meds.. They often make things worse and only work for 50% of the people that take them anyway. I can't stand the side effects and learned self soothing. Good luck

[JAYnLA in reply to RiderontheStorm]

I'm so glad that you have been able to get relief without meds. I tried for soooo long. I'm 6 weeks in to Zoloft and it's helping a bit. I'll take it for now, but look forward to healing enough that someday I can be med free as well.

[hlangdon in reply to RiderontheStorm]

I"m on prozac right now which is not addicting. Plus I'm on trazodone for sleeping

[crazychkinwa59]

I am sorry for your therapists HORRIBLE attitude! I have been living with this disorder for over 30 years and have learned alot. This chick is not the right fit for you!! Please look elsewhere for help if at all possible. There is a light at the end of the tunnel with an EDUCATED therapist!!! Hang in there. jewels

[hlangdon in reply to crazychkinwa59]

thank you crazychkinwa59. This is the 2nd prescriber I have seen since this started in August. The first one would not listen to me about having poor sleeping habits but this one did. The one I'm seeing now only uped my prozac once since I have seen her.

[crazychkinwa59 in reply to hlangdon]

Please, This is just not right! I am a mad as hell that they are not treating you with the proper meds and dosages! Please! Ask your pharmasist for help!

[crazychkinwa59]

They can advise..... I have been in your shoes! With the right DOC and Meds. Things are better. Not sure how else to help. IM not sure how...Best