I’m so tired

[Bookishbunny]

I’m just ready for this to end.

Today is Mother’s Day and mine got home at 3:30. She has not initiated contact. We had a fight last night. She took a nap directly woke up vacuumed and said she was going straight back to sleep. I was annoyed because yesterday was supposed to be her Mother’s Day and while my father ruined things my sister and I tried to piece things back together. And she accepted none of it. She knows I’m doing poorly and why this weekend was a struggle for me, but what did she do, but yell at me for asking for support.

And just now I tried to talk with her and she cut me off and said she was going to bed and was too tired to talk.

I was in a very bad place last night, I was having scary thoughts but I got through and now I’m right back there. Why is this my life? Why won’t someone be there for me? Don’t they still love me?

[Marysblue]

Sorry you're feeling so bad. Sounds like your mother has some problems herself. maybe with your Dad.Don't think you're the cause of the problem when it could be about them, not you. I don't feel like I have any support either. And I never have. We ve got to learn to be our own support system.

I'm glad you reached out on here. I hope it helps for you to talk about it. If you need someone to talk to, call a crisis line if it gets really bad.

I'm glad Mother's day is over too, not a good day for me.

take care.

[Hollick in reply to Marysblue]

Yup I am too! It was my mother's birthday, mother's day, and ovarian cancer day, and that's what took her RIP 🙏

[dutchgirl71 in reply to Hollick]

I’m sorry for your loss

[Poodie]

Hi Bookishbunny

I am so sorry you are going through this. Some people are not able to give love. It is a very difficult and sad situation to be in and to to navigate through life. You should be getting support from your parents but there is none and it sounds as if you are told you are wrong even asking for it. It sure brought back memories for me.

I got through trying to get to know other people who were giving and kind. I latched on to anybody or anything (ideas, books, courses in school) I could to help pull me along. And even with that it was hard.

I am glad you are reaching out here for support. There are definitely people in life that make life worth living. Don’t forget about yourself, you know what you need so it is up to you to get it from others and also to love and support yourself.

I wondered if you are in therapy which can also provide you with an opportunity to grow, gain support, and help you live a happier life despite what you are getting or not getting at home. You sound as if you are a perceptive person and

Good luck to you and keep writing in to let people here how you are. This is a nice community of people.

[Bookishbunny in reply to Poodie]

I’m in therapy but it hasn’t helped.