Question and a vent

[Bookmama20]

My depression and anxiety have gotten really bad lately! Back to having panic attacks. I have absolutely no motivation to do anything! I just want to stay in bed all day! It sucks!

I recently got caught up in a job scam, didn’t get too far, but still! I have been struggling at work. While I love my job and the majority of the people? A few are extremely annoying! We’ve also been a bit slow so that doesn’t help!

I have also noticed that I have been withdrawing more and more lately! Needless to say? I am battle weary! I reached out to both my therapist and psych nurse,asking to be written out for a couple of months to get my shit together! Neither would. My psych nurse wants me to enroll in a Partial Hospitalization Program( I start next Tuesday). Nervous about it but hoping it can help and I will see about them writing me out!

My bedroom is a hoarder’s dream, bed literally falling apart, the rest of my house is messy! I hate it! I need a month or so to just send clutter and deep clean my house, that will help a lot! Also need to get set in a routine, tough to do that right now. And I just need some me time! I had a really rough time about 5 years ago. Came as close to having a breakdown without actually having one .

Now I have been in fight of flight for so long that I’m mentally burnt out! I didn’t take anytime off then, now it is catching up with me. All the trauma that I have been burying is coming to the surface!

Anywho, my question is has anyone done a PHP and what we’re your experiences! Did it help, or hurt you more? I’m walking in blind and just kind of want a little heads up if I could!

As always thanks for reading my rant!

[Agora1]

Hi Bookmama, deep down, we all know when we need additional help withour stresses. The day came for me years ago when I realized that I was over my

head with constant fear and panic attacks. Medication and therapy were in place

but not seeming to help.

That was when I decided to tell my psych that I wanted to walk into the hospital

and spend some "me time" rather than waiting and be carried in.

That in-patient time that I spent was so well worth it. The first thing I felt was

a structure within each day. That in itself gave me peace of mind.

I attended each and every meeting. In between I was working on myself. Wanted

no visitors, no phone calls. This was my time to get myself together once more.

The feeling of safety knowing help was around me 24/7. Medication changes were

started while I was in a safe place. My psych came to see me for private counseling.

It was intense therapy. The psych nurses were available as well as therapists on the

floor.

For me, it was a good experience. But I had to make it that. Came on that floor

looking for help and received it. I was offered PHP after that but didn't need it.

I wish you well in whatever you decide to do. Good Luck xx

[Mea-3]

Hi,Yes I’ve done a php. I found it very helpful. Stress to them that you need time off as it definitely sounds to me like you do! Best of luck to you and embrace the process of the php!