These are feelings brought about solely by the whacked out chemistry in your body right now. Bear it, and it will pass, no matter how real it seems!
I can relate, sad to say I am loosing my site, and I need four operations, they have been saying it will take a year to start treatment although I have an appointment in March because I am getting worse very quickly now
Hi BobI'm so sorry to hear about your sight problems.
I really hope your operations go well. You have alot on your plate at present.
Am I right in thinking that you and I shared a few posts and replies about Lincoln where I had just had a city break maybe a year or too ago. I think you had lived there.
Hi it’s Shnookie. Your life is precious. The love you have for your children will help U get thru this tough time. U can also contact the Suicide Prevention Hotline 800-273-8255. They R very supportive and easy to talk to. Can U get in touch with your therapist? Maybe some of your meds can be tweaked. I’m here 4 U. U can
Hi StarDo sorry to hear how bad you are feeling at the moment. Know that it will pass.
Talk to your doc about your medication. I know you were thinking of going off it. If you started the weaning off process perhaps that is why these negative thoughts have started to kick in.
Perhaps you need your meds and should go back on them. You are a much loved person by your family and by us all on this forum.
You hate the disease and you are not the disease. The negative thoughts are the depression. The lack of concentrating, thinking g and focusing is the disesse. We have to hang on and know when the brain chemicals are restored we will be out of the depression. Get a good therapist anddon’tstop coming to this support group. You help others when you can and they help you when they can. We are not all in a depression at the same time. I have been in one since Dec22 due to a very hard circumstance. We all have a lot of love to give to each other. Mauv
Dear Starrlight, please try to stop thoughts of suicide. What we think can turn into what we believe and act upon. I’m sorry you are suffering with self hate. I know that place. There is a very helpful book tho hard to find by Dr Theodore Ruben/Rubin called “compassion and self hate” if you can find it you may take comfort in it and find it helpful. Love and hugs to you during this time of hurt 😞 💕 💗
Shoot I just wrote a Whole thing and it went away when I put this picture in anyway this book is really awesome for me to get through times when I was self hating much love and hugs to you right now hold on this will pass
This showed up on my morning meditation. Just thought I would share it.
I know you hate your meds. I'm not sure where you are in your process but you are changing you chemistry right now, This is a very difficult time as your body adjusts.
We are all here for you. You are special, you are loved, you are needed by many. Your family knows you love them. Write a list of why they love you. When you write that list you are going to see why you are worth fighting for. In that list you are going to see your positive traits.
Love the poem. There is something to be said about how deep you dug into that pain. This reminded me to write. I need to dig into my pain & get it all out. I've been having some cruel winter writer's block as of late. Usually I would read other people's poetry and that would jog it out of me to write and the words would flow. I haven't let myself do that lately because I figure I would be blocked up and nothing would happen. So I logged in here today and this pops up and now I can feel my inspired self itching to write. I am sorry to read about the way you are feeling, however, In spite of your hellish pain; you inspired me to start writing. I thank you for that gift. Please keep going and use your writing as a tool to push through it.
I’m scared weak and crying non stop. Sorry Ihavent written back to each of you beautiful people. I still want to go from this world and the torture I see of life if my perception and think it will have to be an accident or on a day when I a in a fight because I could barely stop myself. It’s scary it’s cruel it’s wrong. But here I am in it. I spoke with my psychiatrist today. He said I will start feeling better. I told him I want to try Lexapro even though he said I already tried it. Fuck. Where is God? I feel hate. So maybe he is blocked from me if hHe exists. I am nothing. I don’t need to be here. I will wait a week and see how I feel. Then I may go on Lexapro. Then I may bring death closer to me through my thoughts and beliefs. I am crying and raging. I’m not the me I thought I was. I don’t know who I am. Why do you care? Thanks for caring none the less. I fixed stew with carrot cabbage onion potato salt pepper with vegetable broth. I do this with love for my family as I day dream about ways I could go. Maybe in the Spring.
You are far from weak, Starrlight. The amount of courage it takes for a person to cope with all that you are coping with far surpasses weakness. 💗
You are something, you are someone, you most surely matter, and you are loved.❤️
Crying is a release, keep the tears flowing. They are not, and never will be, a sign of weakness.
It doesn't matter if you reply to each one of us, it only matters that you keep coming here and sharing your struggles with us. 🙏🏻
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