Anger.

I hate it when I reach this point. Every once in a while, all of my sadness and frustration just turns into pure anger towards everything really. Anger towards the people who hold me back. Anger towards the people who wronged me. Anger towards my culture for restraining me in so many ways. Most of all, anger towards myself for being a failure with no power to change anything and having absolutely no ambitions or passions.

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Hi Roko2048, Anger isn’t necessarily a negative thing. It can be a signal that alerts us to changes that need to be made. Take a look at the things that are within your realm of influence. Things like your thoughts & actions. Try not to focus on what is not within your realm of influence. Things like the thoughts & actions of others. It sounds like you’re in a dark & hopeless place right now, but it may not always be the case. None of us can predict the future, no matter what our depressed & anxious thoughts want us to believe. I was in a dark & hopeless place recently too. I watched an anti-suicide video on YouTube that advocated procrastination. I put off other things, why not that too? One thing that’s helped my mood a little is exercise. I found a simple walking video (also on YouTube). I don’t want to minimize your struggle by suggesting these things will “cure” you, or that the solution is simple. The truth is, things really suck right now & you’re not alone. Take care.

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Thing is, there's literally nothing in my realm of influence. I may not be able to predict the exact future, but all things follow laws. If I throw a ball upwards, I can predict that it'll come back down. It follows the laws of gravity. Everything in life follows a law. So even though it may not be exact, I can get extremely close and what do I see? Nothing. Absolutely nothing worth living for. Also I hate exercise.

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I disagree. It’s within your realm of influence to make this post, for instance. Otherwise you wouldn’t. Life is unpredictable; gravity isn’t. Not many people I know like exercise. It’s the feeling you get after you exercise that can be likeable though. Sorry my advice wasn’t helpful, that’s okay. Everyone is on their own journey. Good luck to you & I hope you find what you’re looking for.

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Mmm anger, that is an emotion that is too strong. I luv what busybookworm says about anger not being a neg emotion depending where u are standing. Anything can be used neg or positive depending on ur stand on it. U can change it to do what needs to be down in order to get rid of anger. I am a firm believer that if something troubles u, find solutions to it and start immediately to sort it out, that way u will not be angry anymore. I also belive that there is no person or culture that can force me to do something I don't want to do, therefore I do not blame anyone 4 my failures. I have the last say in my life. It is good to make people happy but never make anyone happy at the expense of ur happiness-that is a disease.

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Well its a disease with new cure here because I don't have a choice.

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That the spirit!!

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Oh sorry I meant no cure lol.

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Roko2048, I want to expand some on the anger towards yourself. When used in it's place and time, anger and disappointment in one's self can be a healthy thing. My guess is that if you thought you were in that space you wouldn't have posted that. I'm a Christian, and I've been contemplating this bit of wisdom from a sermon within the last year or so. Whether you're a Christian or not, I think there is plenty of room to parallel as a secular idea. The idea is kind of semantic; it's the difference between conviction and condemnation. To a born again as myself, conviction is my inner voice (conscious) telling me that "what you just did was wrong, don't repeat it" while condemnation is the thought that "you wouldn't have done that thing if you were really saved and that you aren't worthy of love or goodness". The conviction is God correcting me and the condemnation is Satan trying to get me to give up. A secular way to say may be that we should regret our actions but not let that prevent us from realizing the person we want to be. Perhaps there's a better way to express this idea, but try to remember that regret doesn't mean your a bad person necessarily--if you were a bad person you probably wouldn't have any regrets.Prayers bro.