My depression and anxiety have peaked. I’m struggling with my internal dialogue again. I’m trying my best.
I developed romantic feelings for a friend and it’s been rough. He’s been talking about dating someone and it just hurts. I’m trying my best but I feel I just develop feelings for unavailable men. I feel so unwanted and like I don’t deserve happiness in that aspect of my life.
Hi there!I'm so sorry you're in so much pain right now. I am as well and it's almost unbearable. What keeps me going is knowing that I will come out of this that much stronger. Please know that you're not alone. You say that you're trying your best. That is all you can do, so congratulate yourself for that!! Trying our best is all any of us humans can do.
Have you heard of DBT? Dialectical Behavioral Therapy works on improving your inner dialogue.
Thank you so much.
Thanks Leon ♥️
Do you think it’s ok to ask if they regret certain things (in regards to giving me a different perspective of them)?
You deserve all the happiness in the world. You deserve a fulfilled life to claim as your own. I'm so sorry you are struggling right now. Have you worked with a counselor? My counselor has helped me tremendously in my life and I struggle with the same things as you. Please take care of yourself. We are here for you!
I remember how years ago I started to have some strong feelings for a guy who clearly only wanted to keep me in the “friend” category and how badly that all ended and how I felt like he stuck a knife in my heart. I never want to go through that kind of experience again. Sometimes it’s true that a friendship can turn into love, but only if both people truly feel that way. If it’s all one sided and he isn’t showing you that much interest, there’s your answer. There’s an interesting book that came out years ago titled “He’s Not that Into You” that was helpful for me to read and that might help you. Because if he isn’t that into you, then stop investing so much time and effort and caring about him and go out and find someone else who really is interested in you!!!! Maybe you need to step back and cultivate some other friendships and relationships and don’t make him your go to best friend thing anymore. Trust your intuition.
Struggling 
Good days, bad days
Struggling in relationships 
Struggling with talking
