struggling

[Dogmom8]

For the last 6 months I’ve been dealing with awful anxiety and more recently depression. I feel so stuck with my mind life and emotions. I’ve had a mix of good days and bad ones but it seems that I just can’t shake these feelings. Im so exhausted of always being on edge I lay in bed all day and nap then I lay awake all night thinking about how I can fix myself and my life. I have extremely weird anxiety triggers that I don’t really open up about and I feel so isolated and lonely because I don’t feel comfortable opening up to anyone I’m worried they will get annoyed or think I’m weird and I’m worried my boyfriend will leave me over my mental issues. I just feel so lost in a state of depression and anxiety.

[Hidden]

Sorry to hear what you're going thru. I too am experiencing the same for the last year and appears to be getting worse recently. I'm exhausted of trying to figure out what may be the cause and trying all these methods to ease my anxiety/depression. I just want to be at ease and happy 🥹

[Dogmom8 in reply to Hidden]

I completely understand the feeling and frustration. I know my environment is one of the reasons I’m having such a hard time with this. I’ve definitely come to realize that you don’t have anxiety for no reason your body is trying to tell you something that is causing emotional distress but keep ot up you’ll get there!

[Southpaw1970 in reply to Hidden]

We're all in similar place. This past few years has been challenging to say the least.

[Southpaw1970 in reply to Hidden]

How are you feeling now?

[Hidden in reply to Southpaw1970]

Woke up with anxiety and had it all day. My earlier years I would get anxiety late afternoon and night. But this past year I've been waking up already with anxiety and lasts much longer..thanks for asking

[Southpaw1970 in reply to Hidden]

Hope you are feeling better. We share same daily struggles with Anxiety for sure. Here for you anytime, take care

[Beevee]

Hi Dogmon8. Sorry to learn you are struggling.

I've posted alot of stuff on this forum about anxiety and how to recover which might be useful to you.

Briefly, people continue to struggle, even though they've tried everything, to feel better. The mind constantly races, uninvited fearful thoughts keep popping up, not to mention lots of physical symptoms such as blurred vision, lump in throat and heart palpitations.

This is all very normal under the circumstances but the way to recover is to stop trying to get rid of it all and leave it be. Let your mind race, let those fearful thoughts scare you and let your heart beat out of your chest. It's just anxiety and those sumptoms won't be there when you recover@

You cannot get rid of anxiety [and depression] unless you are prepared to feel it all, willingly and to do absolutely nothing to change the anxious thoughts and feelings.

Best wishes!

[Southpaw1970]

Hang in there it will get better.

[majones_0608]

I have been in a similar situation where I have anxiety and depression. The difference for me is I have had it all my life. I first really started to notice it in junior high but that was... oh geez... more than 25 years ago. I feel old now. I am 41 years old, and my depression is still there, but my anxiety has gotten way worse. I fear so much.

I hope and pray your depression subsides. It can be a hard road, but I am sure you will get there.

[Cheetahone]

Dear Dogmom8,

Sad to hear you are struggling. This reply may seem long, but I assure you it is worth it.

If you allow me to give advice, I think you will find at least some relief, comfort and peace of mind from it. I don’t know if you have tried this but it is worth everything to find a solution to depression and anxiety, etc.

The advice is to try a therapist who knows Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT). It is a great resource for anyone with anxiety and depression. It is based on learning to recognize and change your thoughts which will help change your feelings and behaviors. Also, it has been proven to work as well as, or along with medications.

I know you said that you are not comfortable sharing your thoughts with anyone, but a therapist is confidential and they are prepared to help you with whatever your situation and ideas are. Please realize that your thoughts are not who you are they are only what you are thinking. And, the therapist is there just for you and is willing and able to listen and support you and lead you through your healing.

I suggest CBT from personal experience. I have received such relief and results from it that I mention it often on this site. And, for example, nobody but the anonymous people on this site even knows that I suffered in the past with the aforementioned ailments.

You deserve a break, chance and change from your current situation and, as I said, CBT offers those along with the personal benefits of peace and happiness.

Also, note that CBT is not meant to be for life with the therapist. It’s designed so you learn to deal with your thoughts, feelings and behaviors on your own after 10 to 20 sessions. You will learn how to handle them by yourself so you get lifelong benefits.

Please don’t be afraid and at least look into it. At worst you’ll be where you are now. At best you’ll become more alive and free from your past experiences.

Hoping for the best for you and yours, take care of yourself. And I really hope you give CBT a try.

[Dogmom8 in reply to Cheetahone]

Thank you so much! I actually am in therapy and have been since august. My anxiety has been a struggle since I was 14 and I am 18 now I definitely see a difference in how I react and cope with my thoughts and trauma since being in therapy! I appreciate the recommendation