Struggling

[1973m]

Hi all , not been on here for a while .. just needed to express myself.. so I suffer anxiety on and off these days ., its a demon I’m battling now . I’m actually separated from my husband now and divorce is in process ( we are still under the same roof) It’s very hard! I have a brick in my stomach, feel sick .. I can’t sleep.. not eating much etc I know all this is par for the course I’m just reaching out for friends., I feel very vulnerable and lonely right now .. thanks for listening x

[Hidden]

You mentioned having anxiety but what you described reminds me very much of depression.. have you experienced depression symptoms before? with the added stress it could be coming back around or just showing up.. regardless of what ails you, know that we’re here for you through this tough time

[1973m in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for replying, it’s good to knock people are out there ! I’m very tearful and could cry at the drop of a hat! But I’m still getting up , putting my face on and finding small pleasures in every day . I’ve finished work for the summer too , which for me is bad ...endless hours to go over my situation... without something to occupy my mind . My problem is when I feel like this it would be so easy to let’s go back to how it was .. this time though after 23 years I need to keep strong. Thanks you my friend 🙃

[Hidden in reply to 1973m]

yeah the more time i have the more i seem to dwell on things, keeping busy helps, but having support is a good deal of living with symptoms of a mental illness.. i often wish i could go back as well, but that’s not an option, we have to keep moving forward and try to enjoy the little things the best we can until one day we realize we’re better than we were and can find happiness again.

[1973m in reply to Hidden]

What a lovely reply, thank you 😊

I know I’ll get through.. it’s just the doing it !

I hope you’re ok?

[Hidden in reply to 1973m]

you’re welcome

and yeah im okay today, better than i was yesterday so thats what matters for now

[1973m in reply to Hidden]

Good I’m glad to hear it . Always find the good in something..

You know anxiety is just a state that we heighten ourselves into. It’s learning how to go with it an let it pass .

I’m hoping today will be a better day for me too ! It’s early here still so there is time .

[Hidden in reply to 1973m]

Yeah thats still an ongoing battle for me, but im learning... I hope today is a better day for you as well!

[1973m in reply to Hidden]

Well always a listening ear here .

Not much I haven come across in this battle with anxiety 🙂

[Hidden in reply to 1973m]

thank you, im always here to help as well

and i’ll definitely keep that in mind next time i need some advice, i appreciate it

[1973m in reply to Hidden]

Thank you, after a horrible day yesterday and an awful night .

I actually had a very good day.

It helps with all the positives on here .

[Hidden in reply to 1973m]

thats good, im glad to hear today is better

[bonkers65]

Hate you are having so much stress right now. But hang in there. Things will get better

[1973m in reply to bonkers65]

Thank you so much for replying.. so lovely knowing people like you are out there . 😊

[Gtcncmp68]

So sorry to hear your feeling low. This sounds how I feel sometimes. I think maybe you have touch depression which doesn't help your anxiety. Cbd oil helps me. Along side my antidepressants. But make sure you get it from reputable sellers. 🙏 Good luck. X

[Hidden in reply to Gtcncmp68]

What are the pros and cons of CBD oil? Best way to purchase?My psychiatrist is cautious of CBD.

[Gtcncmp68 in reply to Hidden]

I had it recommended to me from a friend. So never really checked pros+cons. Just being honest. I do know that the psychoactive drug THC has been removed. And it certainly doesn't make you high. I buy mine from Holland and Barrett.. Let me know if you try it. Good luck 👍 x

[Dreamie]

Wow! I’m in the same situation with my husband too...headed for divorce but living under the same roof. Totally stinks!

I’m here to give support as well as receive. Glad you are reaching out. I’ll say a prayer for you right now. 💗

[1973m in reply to Dreamie]

Really, I’m in a right mess . I know I’m doing the right thing but still feel like .. sh..

He’s making everything so difficult.. and I feel isolated. I just can’t wait to move out .. roll on the end of August, and I’m not one for wishing my life away.

How are you coping? X

[Dreamie in reply to 1973m]

At the moment I am doing ok. Trying to trust my “gut” that I will be ok. Nothing is settled right now. I’ve moved to a spare room. The mortgage is in my name and I used all my retirement money to buy this house. I cannot afford to live anywhere else unless it’s just to rent a room in someone else’s house. Then I can’t have my dog and he’s part of my therapy. I’m hoping that my husband will eventually stop being in denial and move out. He too wants to make everything difficult. Even then I’ll probably have to bring in a roommate to afford to live but I’d rather be the one sharing MY house.

[1973m in reply to Dreamie]

Hi,I’m glad you’re ok and hanging in there . It sounds like you should stay in the house especially if it’s in your name .

I couldn’t afford to run our house, so it will be sold , I just want to leave because part of the problem has been I feel like the maid .. even though I work the whole lot it just left to me . I selfishly after 23 years and his behaviour I’ve had enough.

Take care lovely, message anytime.

[Dreamie in reply to 1973m]

I see that little “selfishly” word and I gather you may feel a little guilty. Just remember there is a difference between selfish and self-Love. Selfish I think takes no regard for others. Self-Love is doing for yourself what will nurture your soul. I’m no expert. But I don’t want you to feel guilty. Yes let’s keep each other up to date. I wish you the peace and happiness you deserve. 💗

[1973m in reply to Dreamie]

I only feel guilty for my teenage kids , but I think they’ve seen enough. Having spoken to family and friends most of my anxiety stems from being shouted at and left alone for long periods of time and just coping with the whole home, kids , job ,finances without support., it’s time for me now .. thanks dreamie x

[Dreamie in reply to 1973m]

Yes it is. ❤️

[1973m in reply to Dreamie]

Hi dreamie , just wondering how you are and how it’s going for you ? ..

I’m hanging on in ..it’s very hard and the atmosphere is just awful!

Hope that you’re ok .

[Dreamie in reply to 1973m]

Hi! The same here. I have my bad moments, my really bad moments and a little calm in between. But I’m hanging in there too. Sometimes by a thread but I try and remember that I will feel the sun on my skin again. Being on summer break from the school I started working for earlier this year has been rough as I seem to do better when I have a routine. Do you feel better with routine?

[1973m in reply to Dreamie]

Dreamie, I to work at a school so I’m on a summer break too !

Yes 100% better in a routine. I feel like an outsider in my own house at the moment!

Both my teens are ok with me but they’re with him a lot working and he holds the purse strings so they’re being bought quite a lot ..

I think they blame me for instigating the divorce, even though he’s driven me to it with his un acceptable behaviour that they’ve both witnessed 🤷‍♀️ I’m just riding it out and to be honest for self preservation I’m distancing myself 😔

[HopeWithSmile]

Hi, I feel your pain. We are always here for you to support.

I am sorry that you are going through it. In your case everything just piled up, I understand you totally. You feel this amount of pressure on you, so indulge or spoil yourself a little bit. When I feel so low, I try to literally shove something positive right into my face for my anxiety to see it and feel that it is not my boss. I am my own boss.

I wish you well and sending you positive energy and good vibes!!!

xx

[1973m in reply to HopeWithSmile]

What a great name . HopeWithSmile .

Thank you for a lovely reply. I’ve had a better day .

[HopeWithSmile in reply to 1973m]

Thank you) I am here and in PMs whenever you need me!

[Ollyvie]

Hello dear, am sorry to hear what you are going through right now. I know separation and divorce can be overwhelming and have a toll on you. Take deep breath and keep telling yourself that you will be fine. You will survive this one too. The effect is real, but it will go away with time. This is not the end of your life. Divorce doesn’t mean you have failed. It means a relationship didn’t work out. I know its not exactly what you wished for in life, but you have come to that crossed road. Strengthen yourself and cross is even if you have to drag yourself literally till you can stand on your feet again. Some women has been through and are still standing. As human as we are it will break up but don’t let it destroy you. As long as there is life, there is hope for tomorrow. Keep hope alive. . I will be more than happy to link you up with a counseling consultation if you need one. Sending hugs and prayers your way.

[1973m]

Hi, thank you so much for your kind reply.

It’s a very difficult time .

My teens aren’t handling it well and are blaming me for instigating it.. even though the build has all been what he’s done and that he has on several occasions told me to go!! And that I need to make all the moves regarding the divorce.. so now I’m doing it ! I know it’s the right thing for me . I hope you’re ok?