Done

[artisticcatowner]

After the other day being told I might have DID(or I think it’s really OSDD-1a)

I just realized/woke up. I know that I do have issues, I know that I do disassociate in situations. I also know that I have changed personalities in the past based on who I’m with.

But I know I do this because of reasons. -

I’m also trying to figure out why I am unable to see and interact with the world on how it really is.

last year the apartment I lived at, I could barely talk to any of my roommates. I isolated myself a lot. I was scared of them.

now I have moved into a new apartment. Scared of my roommate. Even now she just got home and I’m wondering why I’m not out there in the living room being a human. I’m wondering what it will take for me to just stop.

Already I have completely just given up and talked to my sister finally after years of no talking.(there was talking but no connection. I was never myself around her)((more like I didn’t know who I was when I was with her))(((Now I just look at her realistically))) I’m thinking maybe I have to date somebody. I can’t sit in my room anymore and think myself crazy.

Somebody say something

[artisticcatowner]

Should I get tinder? I am a Christian though and I need good people. I know people from my church but the issue is I disassociate around them. Scared of living in the present moment around them. Same with my roommate. What should I do

[Hb2003 in reply to artisticcatowner]

You should tell your roommate what you might have hopefully she will understand. I’m so sorry about that you can’t control that people need to understand that . Also communicate with your personality’s or system and make a plan and communicate with them to have a plan in place . Lots of kindness love and support to you 🙏

[artisticcatowner in reply to Hb2003]

Thank you.

[Hb2003 in reply to artisticcatowner]

Your welcome 🙏☺️

[Blueruth]

I would start by talking to your roommate. They could be thinking you hate them and that will cause tension. You don’t have to be besties. Just make an effort to interact. I agree with hb that you could tell them you have challenges but honestly you might not have to. Just say hi, how’s it going and focus on what THEY say. That will take the focus off you. Why would a date be easier?

[artisticcatowner in reply to Blueruth]

Yes-I do talk to my roommate. I’m friends with her-but still feel anxious a lot. lolidk about the date thing lol

[artisticcatowner in reply to artisticcatowner]

Also I did what you said! I focused only on my roommate and I’m realizing I don’t have to be scared of her. Lol. Slowly but surely

[artisticcatowner in reply to artisticcatowner]

Basically, I have not been around anyone at all for a few years-but now I have 2 people on my list that I’m not scared to be around. It’s getting better lol

[Blueruth in reply to artisticcatowner]

That’s a great tool. It definitely takes practice. I tend to be alone too. When I do hang with other people I talk and it is me focused because I am out of practice. Keep at it!

[ithasclaws]

i know this post is two years old but a lot of what you have said really resonates with me especially since on this website so far you were the only one to talk about osdd (which is what i think i have)