I'm hurting. How do I make it stop??

I haven't been happy for so long, but there is this girl and I knew she had a boyfriend and loved him and he's a great guy and he's my friend now, but I still fell in love with her. She was the first person that made me feel happy in so long even for just brief moments. We ended up talking about how we used to both like each other, but neither of us knew. We have slept together twice now(one night right after the other) she initiated it the first time and I did it the second. It's been weeks now, and she pretends like it didn't happen, although I've never brought it up with her. She never told her boyfriend, and we just keep going as we were. I really do feel awful for doing that to her boyfriend, because he really is a good person. It hurts like hell to see her love somebody else. I never knew that I could love somebody this much, but I can't tell her I love her because she's happy. I also can't avoid her and stop being friends with her because we are in the same classes, she was one of my best friends before I fell in love with her, and have the same friends, but every time I think about her and how I can't love her I just want to hurt myself again. I need to stop loving her, but it feels impossible because I love her so much that it hurts. What should I do??

PS: I'm a girl

[Sofiexxx]

Hmm... Tricky situation. If she’s not willing to leave her boyfriend, which she should because she cheated, you need to move on. Heartbreak is something everyone has been through, and thankfully it’s something that gets better and passes with time. The best thing is go avoid everything that has to do with her, delete piks, songs everything that reminds you of her and start a clean slate. It’s going to be tough but you can get through it. If she hasn’t reached out to you, you clearly are not something that she prioritizes, and neither should you. Spend your time wisely👍🏻 Good luck

[Hidden in reply to Sofiexxx]

Thank you so much. This was more helpful than you know. This situation has been making me want to cut again, and this reply was very helpful

[Sofiexxx in reply to Hidden]

I am so glad that I was a tiny bit helpfull. Trust me, this too shall pass 🌱 I feel like a hypocrite saying this too you because I am facing a rough time myself right now, and just saying «oh think positive» is just not going to help. Think about it, if you cut. Who exactly are you hurting? Her? Nope, she will never know. Only YOURself. Is she worth it? Rather then being in pain all day, figure out a way to get back to yourself and be productive. Work. Go out with friends, family, library. Whatever it is. When you’re occupied you dont have the time to think about problems. Trust me mate. You will get through this 🌸

[hypercat54]

I would be a bit worried about getting together with this girl if that becomes possible. If she could cheat on her current bf what's to stop her cheating on you too? x

[Hidden in reply to hypercat54]

Thank you

[Pain_art1]

You need to talk to her and I get how you feel but if you don’t it’s going to be a downhill spiral and you won’t be ok talk to her about what happened between you to I wish I could tell you it gets better but I don’t know all I know is that you need to talk to her because nothing will be ok until you do just tell her she needs to tell her boyfriend the truth because she is probably just as confused as you if you love someone you don’t fuck someone else

[Pain_art1 in reply to Pain_art1]

Unless your really hurt

[Hidden in reply to Pain_art1]

Thank you, and I think that talking to her is the best idea too. I just don't know how to find the words or the right time

[Pain_art1 in reply to Hidden]

You’ll know it when you come too it just do it soon the words will come to you when you need them most

[Hidden in reply to Pain_art1]

Thank you so much

[Pain_art1 in reply to Hidden]

If we don’t stick together then what would we do with our time

[Hidden]

Ugh not being rude but that girl is desperate she is a hoe 😂 damn u got yourself messed up big time brother

[Hidden]

Girls and they're silly little mind guys when will guys learn 😂🖕

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I'm a girl though...... I just let my emotions get me way too quick

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Oh oops sorry thought you was a geezer kinda hard to tell through these messages

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

It's cool lol I'm just a 15 year old girl with too many problems

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Same I'm 17 and a girl too here I got a fuckload of issues too , what race are you ? I saw your profile I'm Chinese

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I'm mixed race with black and white

[Kat63]

I would really like to see you thinking about what’s good for *you*. Could you do that? Look at the situation and the possibilities through a lens of “what’s good for me”?

[Hidden in reply to Kat63]

Thank you, I can try that