I need support. My nasty Dad just threatened to kick me out of the house.

And he knows I have nowhere to go. He treats me like I’m meant to be his slave. I really hate him. He expects everyone to just do what he says and shut up. He sits in his lazy boy chair most of the day and hardly lifts a finger to do much of anything. Smoking his nasty cigarettes and not caring if anyone else gets asthma. No one wants to be around him. He barks at everyone. And my Mom has problems too. She threatens to leave but she won’t go through with an actual divorce and try to get a two bedroom apartment with me. Her words are just words, and they might as well be lies. I’m trying to get the hell out of here, no social worker can or will help me. I’m trying to get into a low income apartment complex. I was told with the waitlist that it could take 5 years. Otherwise my only other option is to live in a group home in Inkster or Detroit. Those are bad areas no one wants to live in. So I live here and constantly put up with being verbally abused by both him and my Mom. I wish I could get married again, but I definitely don’t want a marriage like theirs. My mom just stays with him for his money, there’s no real love there. If I had some money I would get away from here in a heartbeat. I’d get away from Michigan. It’s no wonder I relate so much to Madonna. Her Dad wasn’t that nice to her either and she didn’t even have a Mom growing up. Her Mom died when she was 5 years old, and I’m not sure about this but I believe her mothers name was Madonna and that’s why her name is Madonna. Her father is Italian and her mother was French Canadian. But no, I don’t have the guts to take off for New York City and become next to homeless and let guys take naked pictures of me for money. So I stay here in this crazy house that I’ve always wanted to get away from. I only ended up on a mental ward getting labeled with bipolar disorder and told I’m sick and that I’m a burden and good for nothing. Why don’t I kill myself??? What do I really have to live for but getting yelled at and spit on by people?????

[just_keep_swimming]

I sometimes feel shackled to my parents , they have provided me with a lot through my life and I am greatful but sometime they treat me and say things that are demoralizing , but how am I supposed to say anything when they have sacrificed so much for me its a constant struggle . I would say just keep trying to look for low housing options and ways to move out so you don’t feel like a slave , maybe you can see if you can get a job or a side job to make some money/extra money and start saving , also see if there is anyone that is renting out a room , I know where I live alot of people rent out rooms in thier apartment or house .

[Hidden in reply to just_keep_swimming]

I just got a part time job that I’m happy with so I’m thankful for that. But this is a very tense environment here, it always was and always will be. I’m not allowed to get angry but they have no problem saying mean things to me.

[just_keep_swimming in reply to Hidden]

I understand, anger was something I was never allowed to show so I bottled it up until I was alone and just cried . And also that’s good that you have a part time job you can start saving a little and then look for affordable housing .

[Hidden in reply to just_keep_swimming]

I don’t know if I’ll get anywhere. I’m living on a shoestring. I don’t know what to do anymore to have a better income. I’d eventually like to finish up gettting my associates degree at college. I know I only need to take about 5 more classes, I’m very close. But it would just be an associate degree in liberal arts. Still, it means something to me. But there are people that don’t have college degrees who have found other ways to do well for themselves. I would just like to have it even if it won’t lead to a better paying job. Just because someone went to college doesn’t necessarily mean they’re smart. And no one likes having to deal with student loan debt.

[just_keep_swimming in reply to Hidden]

if it would give you satisfaction and completeness I say go for it and also yes they are job that dont require a degree maybe you could research jobs that interest you that don't require a degree that way you could possibly make more money doing something that you like and not having to put yourself in alot of student debt .

[Raggedy-Ann]

Big hugs. You are wonderful, kind, and caring. You are important. I think you need to have a calm sit down talk with your parents. Maybe try a conversation with a moderator. You all need to learn how to have adult conversations with love and respect for each other.

Have you thought about a roommate situation?

[Hidden in reply to Raggedy-Ann]

I wish I could have a calm conversation with them. It’s not going to happen. They’re not going to change and neither am I. We’re better off not talking to each other. Nothing ever gets resolved. It’s always been like this. I used to have my own apartment for a long time but then I really fell on hard times. They don’t really want me here. I pay them rent and I pay for my food and that’s about all I can do. They hate me.

[Raggedy-Ann]

That sounds hard. It sucks being someplace you're not wanted.

[Hidden in reply to Raggedy-Ann]

My Mom is nice sometimes. It depends on her mood. I really avoid my Dad like the plague. It doesn’t matter if I’m nice to him, he will always find something about me to complain about.

[Arymretep]

I’m so sorry , sending ‘cwtches’from Wales 🫂😘

[Hidden in reply to Arymretep]

Thanks, I’m very sad right now. I left the house and now I’m sitting by myself at a restaurant. I had to get out of there. Maybe I need to go to a homeless shelter. I’m just not getting along with anybody.

[Midori]

They would be able to advise you, certainly. They were great with me when I needed them.

Cheers, Midori

[Hidden in reply to Midori]

I’m very nervous about doing that. I’m not sure if there’s truly much help out there, especially if you don’t have much money. I’ve been in some bad living situations. I’ve briefly been in a women’s group home where I couldn’t even have my own room. Had to share a room with some other strange woman. You never know what some of these people are like. Or if someone is going to try to steal something from you. I’m thankful I have this part time job now, I don’t want to do or be anywhere where I could lose that. I need the money. And I pay my parents less in rent than I would have to living in one of these group homes. They are run by slumlords. The first thing they want to know is how much you’re getting in Social Security so they can take as much of it as possible for rent. The more money you receive, the more they want to charge you for rent. They are making money off of people who already don’t have very much to live on. I’m trying to save up to eventually get a car again. Not long ago I was considering moving into one of these places. I told the owner I could pay $600 for rent, I thought that was fair. He claimed he was getting $700 from someone else, probably someone who receives more in Social Security than I do. Then this guy is looking over me and my Mom, taking in how we’re dressed, basically seeing if we’re wealthy people he could try to get more money out of. He noticed I happened to have an apple 13 iPhone. He started saying he doesn’t have that kind of phone, he has a cheaper one, and his kids are telling him the IPhone is better. I felt like retorting back to him that I don’t have children I have to support and whatever kind of phone I have is nothing he needs to get into my business about. Ugh, that was a horrible experience. My Mom and I decided I shouldn’t move there. But I’m not sure where to go. I’m meeting with a social worker on Thursday to talk some more about housing, but supposedly she’s supposed to know some stuff about housing and I am finding out that she doesn’t seem to know much at all. Already she’s told me a lot of wait lists are just closed. There’s one apartment complex she knows about where they’re taking names. It’s in a city I already know I don’t want to live in. There’s another place in a good area I really want to try to get into, well because it’s in a good area EVERYONE is trying to get into it. It’s really supposed to be for senior citizens, but they do have a limited number of units for others with disabilities. They flat out told me on the phone that I’d probably be on the wait list for about 5 years. This is insane. It isn’t right for anyone to have gone through what I’ve been through.