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[MidnightRaven]

Hey everyone! I am new here and it's odd for me because I don't normally like talking about my own feelings. I tend to bottle up and just either try to disperse any negative emotions or situations or they just build and make me feel crazy. I was diagnosed with depression in high school after finally telling my parents that something was wrong. I was also diagnosed with OCD at that time. Now I have also been recently diagnosed with anxiety and BPD. It made things make sense at the very least. I am on meds for the first time since high school. I still don't like talking about my feelings, I don't like making things about me and I don't want anyone else to feel bad or negative in anyway towards my feelings. I switched antipsychotics due to potential weight gain but will probably go back to the original because it definitely helped more. My depression has been really bad lately, I hate working and don't feel like existing (not suicidal). Hopefully I can get out of this funk but who knows. It's hard even when you see it and acknowledge it. It just feels good to be lazy ya know?? Anyways this is really long, nice to meet you all! Hopefully I'll be on here more and talking with people, I just have a low social battery, even on the internet.

[Matilda35]

Hello fellow newbie, glad you are on this site. 🙂 Please know that you are not alone and can get through this.

[kenster1]

hi and welcome to you.

[Zimarra]

Welcome I’m a newbie too

[Itzallgood1]

Welcome to the forum. You'll meet some real nice people here.

[Midori]

Hello Midnight Raven, and welcome!

It can be quite a trial, opening up to people, I find, is worse in a face to face situation than on a Forum like this.

Here you can get some opinions from many folk, not just a single therapist. We are in the main a friendly and supportive group, although there is sometimes an odd one who forgets we are all here with similar problems and the aim is to support, not denigrate the others. There is a Report button should one catch you out.

Cheers, Midori