Update : A Better Day + Thank You

[DistressedPoe]

Why have I found better friends here than I did in my entire few years in high school ? (I'm looking at you, weird girl that stalked me for 5 months after I broke off our toxic friendship)

I just wanted to make this post as a thank you to everyone who is kind enough to give me support and make me feel better. A few weeks back, I felt like dying. And now I finally am starting to look at the bright side of things again.

I'm still anxious. But when am I not ? Lol I know I can't simply make it disappear but all the support I get from people on here is really making things easy because for the first time, I don't feel like I'm the only one who feels this way.

I actually got up and out of my room, played my favourite songs and danced today. It's been ages since I did this. I did get a little anxious because a thought popped in my head but it was easily brushed off.

The loneliness is still there but my friends, brother and all of YOU have really made it easier for me to cope. I know I said I don't think I can last 5 months like this but...for the first time, I feel like maybe...just maybe...I can. It'll be hard. I know I'll get anxious but I'll get through. Little by little.

I'm grateful and I hope you all feel comforted talking to me too ! I'll always be here to listen ^_^

To more good days and less bad ones !

[JAYnLA]

(Favorite post of the night!!!!!)

[DistressedPoe in reply to JAYnLA]

HAHHAHAHA YAY !! I'm glad heheh ❤️

[CupOfTee]

❤❤❤

[Kat63]

I’m glad you’re here. You’ve been a great help to me, as well, with your thoughtful answers to my posts.

I’m beginning to wonder if anxiety and depression - at least for some people - never totally go away forever. Maybe some people *have* anxiety and depression - the same way other people have diabetes or high blood pressure. They have to manage it with medication and other treatments.

I tell myself that. Then I go through a good period in my life when anxiety and depression aren’t bothering me - and I get spoiled. Then after awhile, I go through another period of anxiety and/or depression. When it hits me again, I can’t help feeling unhappy that I have to deal with this *again.* That it may keep coming back for the rest of my life.

That sucks. But one good thing about being older (I’m 55) is that I’ve gotten through several bad parts of my life - and I’m getting better at handling it. I look back on how I handled things when I was younger, and I can’t help wishing I had my 55-year-old brain in my 18-year-old body!

[DistressedPoe in reply to Kat63]

Hmm y'know what. Idk about depression but I always thought anxiety was something I had to deal with forever. Maybe not as severe, but I'd see the symptoms from time to time depending on my situation. I feel like maybe...it is something I have to live with.

I'm glad my answers make you feel better and I shall continue to do so ❤️

It's okay. Mental health issues suck but hey, at least you're aware and you know how to control them! It may get tough but ultimately I think we are doing just fine ^_^ it's hard and we can be overly critical of ourselves but take one step at a time. And relax. You're fine and just like every other issue, you'll know how to get out of this one also.

I hope we all feel better in the future ❤️