Losing hope... again

[MNS_04]

I was really doing better, but it's like none of that even happened now. I told my friend's mom about my feelings and the cutting because I can't tell my mom, and she offered to listen whenever but I feel like such a burden to her and everyone else. I always feel sad or just super tired and I have lost motivation for everything. I dread when I have to go do things. I'm working with kids this summer and I thought that being around happy smiling faces and funny conversations would help, but I feel awful at work too. I don't know what to do or how to fix myself. I feel like I'm never going to get better and I will always be like this. I've tried to exercise more and and I've really distracted myself, forcing myself to go out with friends, but even that can't take away the sadness and I feel even worse when the distractions are over. I'm just losing hope again and I feel really alone. I've felt like this for so long and I don't feel comfortable talking about it to people anymore because I've talked about it for a long time, but it's something that never goes away.

[Depressed1996]

Have you found help? Do you do any therapy or anything like that?

[MNS_04 in reply to Depressed1996]

Yep! I go to therapy once a week and I've been on zoloft for like 2 months

[Sarah1111111]

Hi,

Are you at university? It's great you told your friends mum and it's good to have someone to talk to but I think getting specialist help would be great and would stop you feeling a burden. If you are at uni there should be access to a campus counsellor who can help after the summer, but in the meantime I'd go and see your GP to see if there's any short term support, such as meds that he might be able to give you until then.

Children are funny and can make you smile, but can also be tiring, or emphasise how unlike them we feel and make us feel more miserable. Hope you find something. That helps

[ElJared91]

Hello hello!!! As Depressed1996 alluded to, have you had a chance to discuss any or all of your symptoms and feelings with a doctor??? At a bare minimum, you should let a qualified health professional know how you are feeling as soon as you can so they can figure out a plan of action. When I was your age, I was going through almost exactly the same issues that you were. Although I found help through medication, there are many other options and paths that you can try to pave your own personal road back to happiness. Best of luck!!

[MNS_04 in reply to ElJared91]

Yes I see a therapist once a week and have for a few months, but my last session with her was last week (she moved) and I start with a new one this week. However, I have not felt much better. I take zoloft as well.