I decided to join an online support group because I'm still too shy to talk about my feelings in person. The reason i joined is because for the past several months I have been in a state of anxiety and depression and have always tried to brush it under the rug thinking i can easily get through this. But I can't and right now the anxiety is hitting so hard.
To give some background info on myself, Im a female, 23 years old and have recently been kicked out of my nursing program. I failed by 2% and it pains me to think about that. That's where all my trauma anxiety etc. all began. This was in april of this year. I feel like a failure. Every single one of my friends has graduated college or are starting programs and here I am beginning from square one. Not to mention I am working a really crap job and my coworkers are mostly high school students. I try not to let all this get to me, but some days it's just really difficult and I break down. I don't know anyone else who is in my position and I don't like talking about this with people because they will never understand even though I know they try to. I feel like a disappointment. I am trying to better myself even though I know starting from square one will be hard I can push through. It's those days where I want to give up that make me rethink everything in my life. Today was a bad day and I just want to stop crying about my situation. I wish it wasn't like this, but I know I just need to dig deep down to get the strength I need.