The one song you never want to be able to relate to

[teen_anxiety]

even if you would be singing her part and even if you have good reasons this is the one song you never want to be able to relate to: I hope your happy now by Carly Pearce and Lee Brice

here's the link if anyone wants or needs to know what song I'm talking about: open.spotify.com/track/0Al3...

Might have lost one of my only two best friends over what the song is talking about seems like I'm down to one that I always feel guilty talking to because he always asks about how I am and he receives an answer every time sometimes in detail too but though I know he has his bad days he chooses to not share them with me but with others instead. There's not a problem but it makes me feel guilty that I am constantly using him as my soundboard to the point it seems he feels unable to use me as a soundboard back.

I hate being around people these days just as much as I love being around people all because I feel like I have no one. One friend moved away (and I may have lost) and the other does not go to the same school or other things as me so when I go I see cliches and friends but I'm all alone. I also feel like a bad friend if I am being honest because I feel like I end up just pushing them away for whatever reason. It's the little things that can kill me because of trust issues.

IDK or maybe I just made this all up in my mind so I would not feel so bad for feeling this way. The moments are real but what about the feelings are they real, are they fake, do they matter, do they not.

comment if the last line would make a good song lyric or not.

[Blackdog2]

Would make a great song lyric, all the great songs are born out of real emotion!We can all relate to the lyrics in the great songs, as they are real they don't need to be nice or pretty!

Rough and raw does it for me,

Now how about you how are you? Thank you for bringing another great artist into my play list of life.

Your never alone please remember this, we're all here, I know sometimes it's hard, and God knows we all have our demon's!

You sound really great and a deeply passionate person, that's a real double edged sword, wearing your Hart on your sleeve leaves you open to hurt and it also looks a little strange 🤣

But putting up barriers just doesn't sound like your style, I found it hard to be alone, and I don't want to pry about your age but take it from me you can learn to like yourself and that's the hardest thing to do, but once you've done that the world's your oyster, I'd go out on my own to clubs not to hook up, just to be out there and mainly to clubs where the music was the focus, you'd be surprised to see who many people are lonely in a group and will gravitate towards you, as a kindred spirt.

Stay strong and thanks again I shed a tear listening to that, very emotional, but that's the whole point yes?

[teen_anxiety in reply to Blackdog2]

thanks for your reply and yes that is the point.

[Lazy_dog_lover]

teen_anxiety, I am so sorry that you are facing this all. Your friend who is not sharing how he is doing with you may be trying to protect you, not exclude you. Being a sounding board is like being a caregiver. It is tough. If I am understanding your reference correctly, it sounds like you are trying to protect him. I think it may be better to have the hard conversation and let him decide if he wants it. Don't feel guilty, just be honest with him. You are doing nothing wrong. You are not putting an ultimatum on him nor are you abusing his care.

As for the other friend, why do you say it like "One friend moved away (and I may have lost) and the other does not go to the same school or other things as me"? Distance in today's world is easier than ever to overcome. My best friend moved away when we were 14...pre-cell phone and social media. When I turned 16, one of the first things I did was organize a road trip of friends. Good friends are one of the few things worth working for. I have known her 40 years.

It does not matter if this is in your head or not. It is your reality. Your reaction to it all it the only thing in your control. So, what do you want to do with it all? Maybe it is time to start a new hobby or join a new club to expand your circle. Mine has always been very small and it is one of my biggest regrets. Best wishes.

[teen_anxiety in reply to Lazy_dog_lover]

I say it like that because ya we have phones and other things but teens get put down for relying on them and I want more than an online relationship with my friends also I said that because I think I lost a friend for reasons more than him just moving away. and I don't mind a small group it just means there are fewer people to hurt me. but thanks for responding.

[Jeff1943]

The saddest song I ever heard:

Mama, just killed a man

Put a gun against his head

Pulled my trigger, now he's dead

Mama, life had just begun

But now I've gone and thrown it all away

Mama, ooh

Didn't mean to make you cry

If I'm not back again this time tomorrow

Carry on, carry on as if nothing really matters

Too late, my time has come

Sends shivers down my spine

Body's aching all the time

Goodbye, everybody, I've got to go

Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth

Mama, ooh (Any way the wind blows)

I don't want to die

I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all

Carry on, carry on.