I have post partum depression and I feel like there is more to it but I'm embarrassed to talk to my doctor about it . Even though I feel comfortable with her. My son is 1 years old and he's my world. He is a happy normal child but I find most of the time I get really over welded having to care for him. Just playing with him and reading to him feels like a chore or a job. It's not like I don't love him or love to spend time with him it's just caring for him makes me miss the time I had alone before I had him. Now I would never ever change anything I love my son and he is my world but I can't help but feel this way. Things are just too much sometimes. And I take caffeine pills to get me through the day because without them I'm just exhausted and depressed. But then of course taking the caffeine pills makes my anxiety worse throughout the day. I also have severe insomnia and am currently taking 3mg lunes ya and some nights it doesn't even work, but when I don't get sleep I'm 1000x more depressed. I'm also taking Prozac 20mg, which seems to help a lot better than when I was on Zoloft originally. But the Prozac has made my social anxiety 1000x worse because I don't feel the need to talk to interact with anyone else behinds my husband , even though I want friends, my mind just thinks of having friends is a chore. I also don't like to be outside alone or anywhere alone it terrifies me so normally 80% of the day I'm inside. I don't even wanna go outside because I'm afraid of even interacting With neighbors. Staying inside all the time makes my depression worse and the only thing that helps my depression is going a store with my husband of course and spending money. Buying things makes me feel like I'm high and getting that instant gradification is addicting. If I try to even go one day without going to a store and buying something I get really depressed. I wish I could just be happy .
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Welcome Jade Raye! As a mother of three toddlers, I know exactly how you feel. Just reading this, I can tell that you just need to work on balancing things out, balance the time you spend with your child, versus time you spend with yourself and taking care of yourself. The caffeine intake through the day does hype you up, so it makes it hard for you to sleep at night. So you may have to balance that as well, by deciding which one is better for you the caffeine throughout the day or getting rest at night? Those are just some suggestions for you like I said I am a parent and I to suffer with anxiety so I know how frustrating you feel. But just know that you're not alone and once again balance is the key.
Thank you! It's nice to know I'm not the only person that feels like this way. Do you think this is more than post partum ? I don't know what to think but don't wanna sound crazy talking to my doctor.
It may be postpartum depression, but it sounds like anxiety also. I suffer from anxiety. Postpartum can last for a year or more, but I would speak to your doctor if you're still having symptoms. Personally I feel like it's more than that, but your doctor would know.
I went through this 2 times in 22 months and it really stinks! You need to find a Dr. or as i like to say "head DR." that understands what you are going through. It stinks, I know. However there is help out there for you and I'm here for you as I understand!!!!!!!!! Hugs for you!
Aw babe,I just made a post about how I'm pregnant and more depressed than ever. I have addiction issues also so I don't know if it's that or my MDD or hormones/ post pardom depression. Things aren't necessarily going well in my life but there not like terrible.
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