Struggling....again

[Dakota11]

I am having a really hard time right now. I had OCD when I was younger with rituals and it was crippling. I got over it by myself but it was one of the hardest and loneliest times of my life. I am now 27 and I haven't had a job in 2 years and now I am staying with my grandma because I am afraid to be alone. I have very dark thoughts all the time and its very scary. I now find myself obsessing over things and it feels like I am legit going crazy. I have been like this for so long I don't think I will ever get past this. I feel like I am wasting my life away being depressed and scared and anxious. I hate this feeling and what my life has turned out to be. I am in desperate need of some hope. I don't think I can do this for another 40 years. Very scared and sad...

[Marysblue]

For some reason your post didn't show up in my Newsfeed until now. I'm so sorry you're feeling this bad. Things can and will get better for you. Please don't give up hope. I've only been on this site a few months but I've learned a lot, there's a lot of good advice on here. Do you have someone you can talk to a therapist, are you on any medications or can you talk to your doctor about them?

There are treatments that work you just have to keep trying till you find what the right ones are for you. Make sure you have some good healthy habits like exercise getting out in nature in the Sun. There are lots of good YouTube videos on psychology and some of my favorites are Eckhart Tolle and Michael Singer. Show compassion towards yourself, watch your negative thoughts and try to talk nice to yourself instead.

I do believe it will get better for you.