Struggling at Christmas 🎄

[vanessi]

Hello everyone I want to wish all Merry Christmas. I hope you all have an amazing time with your beloved ones and I wish you the best too..

Well i am ok. But the last couple of days I've been feeling that something is wrong with me. I don't feel myself, I feel depressed, hopeless and empty but I have no reason to feel like that. My sister is coming from Canada to spend Christmas with family and John talks to me again and says he will come to see me early next year. Things between us are going so good. And I'm on holidays I also passed the exam so I don't know why I feel like this. This time is different I just feel out of this world and uncomfortable with myself. I think my life is going to be worse in the future and I cry for no reason. I have a feeling that I can't explain and it is inside me and I don't know what to do to not feel it anymore.

[Hidden]

I'm sorry you feel this way. Especially today.

I understand. You are not alone.

You matter.

[vanessi in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much

[TriggerPoint]

Hun ? You Are Special & You Are Normal & Everybody Has Felt This Way Many Times In Our Lives. Sometimes It Makes The Feeling Worse If We Are "Striving" To Pin Point Something. Sometimes Our Minds Just Get Tiered And Spaced Out. When We Push A Tiered Mind ? That Just Makes It More Worn & Spacey... It's Just Not Christmas or/ The Holidays ? It Can Happen Anytime... [ it's just when it happens on a holiday we wanna relate it to the holiday instead of a natural occurrence ]... Chill, Relax, & Rest.

Merry Christmas & YOU ARE OK.....

[ now the fear of the future ? is unreasonable fear. that can be GAD. nobody can change tomorrow.....]

Relax & MERRY CHRISTMAS !*

Prayers For Ya~*

[vanessi in reply to TriggerPoint]

Thank you. I just don't feel myself these days

[kenster1]

hey I remember chatting to you in the beginning you sounded really down then.seems you rode the storm and came through those difficult times.try keep your focus on the positive things that's happening now.enjoy Christmas with your sister/family and look forward to a new year and a new you.

[vanessi in reply to kenster1]

I shouldn't feel like that. But I do. I hope to feel better soon

[Celtic27]

Hi vanessi no one particular thing can trigger how your feeling the fact your family are getting to gether! Could it be you have been cramming for the exam which you have now passed the relief would have been immense but please make some time for your self and once you've relaxed things will fall into place!

[vanessi in reply to Celtic27]

I'll try. Thanks

[Marshall64]

I'm wondering if you are feeling the way you do due to having free time. You said you are done with exams and are on holiday. I know when I have free time I get in my head too much. I'm busy at work and I feel better for it. I actually feel more depressed on the weekends. I try and clean my house or do something else to keep busy.

I can identify with the feeling of not feeling comfortable with yourself. A lot of times I don't feel comfortable in my own skin.

Hope things get better for you. You are young and shouldn't worry about the future. You can plan for it but worrying doesn't change anything. It is easy for me to say but I do the same thing. 😊