Getting bad again

[lookingforthestars]

i suffer from chronic depression, i was diagnosed in 2018 and i havent had any depressive episodes since 2019 and im fine i guess but i cant help but feel like im slipping back into that dark hole again. im also a poet and i havent written anything i think its because im trying by all means to avoid my feelings cause i dont want to go back to a dark hole again.

i also have this ex that i dated in 2019 when i was really bad and when we broke up i just kind of left it hanging and cut him off we didnt talk about what happened and i never really confronted the feelings i felt when we broke up i just pushed it to the side and i never really got closure from him and now i feel like those feelings that i tried to hard to push to the side and hideis finally catching up to me