Random Attacks

[JoshKal]

Hey everyone, kinda new to this app so I don’t know how this will go but here we go.

Over the last couple of months, starting pre-corona, i would have almost attacks of depression randomly throughout my day to day life. One day I could be sitting with my friends and then boom out of nowhere I can’t escape the thoughts of my own head and just become trapped. Once I get one of these episodes I am immediately sucked out of any social situation that I am apart of and just willow in my own headspace. I am currently in a strong relationship, we have been together for something of 2-3 years (we had a break in between) and she does help me get through most of them, but it is really hard for me to put this on her with being the male in the relationship and knowing she is going through a lot and not wanting to put it all on her. It is especially hard when we are fighting (which to be fair is rare). I just cannot handle this anymore, I’ll be laughing and smiling one second then a stray thought of hopelessness will pass through my head and that is all that will pass through my head unless I somehow snap myself out of it or make myself fall asleep. I’m kinda at a loss right now, some guidance would be nice i guess.

[mvillarreal]

Hi, JoshKal. I'm really sorry to hear you're having these random attacks of sadness. Do you have any symptoms of a panic attack like hyperventilation or worry? It almost sounds a bit like a panic attack, but I'm no doctor. I wonder if you could talk to a psychiatrist about this because I'm sure there's something there that could be diagnosed. I hope things get better for you soon, and I'm glad you have someone to support you (even if you worry about burdening her, which is usually a worry that's bigger than the reality).