Panic attacks

[Number51987]

Hi y'all I am 29 about to be 30 year old single mom of a very strong willed 6 year old. I have had anxiety my whole life, I didn't know what to call it until I was older and understood it more. I have tried a ton of medications but none seem to work, they give me a fog feeling, almost like I am not in my own reality. I have been having panic attacks constantly lately, my heart starts pounding so hard it hurts, wakes me up out of dead sleep. I'm obsessing over every thing my daughter does and can't seem to let her just be her. I'm distant at work, unhappy with friends and family, really have no interest in anything. I'm yelling all the time and so impatient with everyone in my life. I have never felt so unhappy but am afraid to try medications again. I want to be the best mom I can and I want to let my kiddo be herself but am unable to just chill. I currently have no health insurance and therapy is not an option financially. Any advice on coping mechanisms, ways to chill out when I'm panicking. Any thing that works for you would be greatly appreciated.

[Rick1on1]

Hi,

Sounds like medication and counseling is the way to go?

Have you tried any herbal remedies?

There is some danger with trying marijuana but some people report break-troughs also.

Have you tried using a journal to make note of your anxiety episodes and then rationalizing it?

[Number51987 in reply to Rick1on1]

I always try to rationalize it while I am having it... I know anxiety makes me become irrational so I try and fix it in the moment. I think the journal idea is a great idea. I always make the episodes worse by thinking everyone knows I am acting crazy and they are judging me... always worried about people judging my kiddo... which i know will happen anyways. That's what society does...

[Rick1on1 in reply to Number51987]

Why do you feel society is going to judge your kid?

[Findingme]

Buy and read the book, Shitty Mum, and give yourself a break. Your child is blessed with a strong will, which will help her more than anything you can do for her, as long as you do not spoil her by over-obsessing about her. Sending hugs and understanding. Xx

[Number51987 in reply to Findingme]

Thank you!