Last night I got kicked out...

[eclif_]

Last night I got kicked out of my moms house after hours of arguing. I broke my leg around a month ago and had to have surgery and had to move back in with my parents for a little bit until I can get back on my feet literally. My step dad and I having been feuding for months even before the leg bc he is a bigot and a racist and can’t keep his hate to himself when he knows it upsets me. he constantly uses hate speech and will look at me and laugh. I told my mom that I no longer feel welcome in their home and that At this point if I had children or was married I wouldn’t let them be apart of our lives bc I wouldn’t trust him around my kids. A couple nights ago after having the “mask” convo he started yelling at me that if I hated it so bad I needed to leave and move to the city to be with those kind of people. He told me I was a freeloader, lazy, that I never go to work and that I should hear all the things my mother says about me.... y’all I broke my leg but before this I was working full time and going to school full time and I workout regularly but When I broke my leg I lost my job. Keep in mind most of the time when he brings up his ignorant points of view I just keep my mouth shut. He has his right to be an idiot and There is no use in beating a dead horse but I had had enough. We sat down with my mom and his mother to try to talk it out but the whole conversation got turned to them all belittling me and invalidating my feels. Every time I tried to talk I get interrupted and talked over and told I’m wrong and it’s very frustrating. Finally my mom told me I was the closed minded one that I won’t ever listen so I need to get out. At midnight. With a broken leg. I started having a panic attack. And when I do I say a bunch of stuff I don’t mean and they wouldn’t listen and I just wanted them to listen to me and let me get it out but instead I end up saying how I wish she would’ve never had me and if it weren’t for my dogs I wouldn’t care if anything happened to me. My grandma starts yelling at me to grow up, my step dad comes in my room gets on my face yelling “where’s the gun! You’re fcked up in the head! “So close I had to fall back on my bed and I was so terrified. I don’t have a gun. I don’t even like guns and they know that. My mom starts screaming either get in the car I’m driving you to get an eval or the cops can take you your choice. I’m like this is literally so dramatic you’re completely taking what I said out of context. So I told her i love you bc you’re my mom but I’m not crazy I just don’t like either one of you as people. So she turned around I got my suitcase and hopped to my car. I found a place to stay and I’m fine. I want to be clear I would never hurt myself I just was trying to get them to listen to me but that’s no excuse. It’s been really hard breaking my leg, losing my job, I can’t pay for school now bc I don’t get financial aid. I’m just so lost and I don’t feel like i have anyone to talk to without judgement. I try to tell my family how I feel and they just turn it around to make me the problem and maybe I am. I told her thanks for proving what I’ve known all along that when I’m at my lowest I can’t count on family and she said nope not when you bring all of us down with you. I don’t know what to do. Please no negative replies.

[ChubbaGiz]

I am so sorry all of this happened to you. It is such a shame and so disheartening when you realize that family is not there for you, even if you would be there for them. It may not seem like it now, but this may just be the best thing to happen for you and your well being. I pray that this is a turning point for you! Good luck to you!

[PainterA]

Dude this sounds awful. Your step-dad sounds like a real prick. Wether you all get-a-long or not its terrible that they kicked you out with a broken leg. It sounds like high emotions just got the best of everyone. You should be able to apply for Disability depending on if you paid taxes through your employment. It's not much but would help. What about unemployment?