Insecurities/depression

[nanavisca]

I’ve battled with depression for as long as I can remember. I’ve tried therapy, counseling, and medication but none of that seems to work. My depression has taken most of my teenage years and it makes me extremely sad. The biggest thing that it has done is given me so many insecurities especially about the way I look I’m so insecure I hate it not a day goes by where I stop and and think about the way I look, then I start comparing myself to other females especially when I go out and I see some pretty females with a nice body and a beautiful smile wondering how could someone be so pretty without even trying. It’s honestly so hard trying to accept myself for who I am and the way I look. There are times where I start feeling pretty sometimes when I get all ready but then i try taking pictures or I look at myself in the mirror and I notice all my flaws and it puts me down and ruins my mood. I really hate feeling like this and it sucks. I feel so insecure in my own skin especially when my mom cares about look and she always reminds me of a time when I use to be skinny 3 years ago but that was the time I starved myself for almost half a year and they made me eat due to doctors orders and then I started eating and gained weight and everyone started telling me how much weight I was gaining and then last year it got to my head and I would eat and then when no one was around I would go reject my food I was desperate to be skinny everyone started saying how prettier I was that I was losing weight but it got to the point where when I would wanna keep my food down it didn’t stay and now I’m trying to eat less and trying to stop myself from gaining any weight and being told by my mom to go to the gym Because I’m getting fat I know she’s just trying to help but sometimes it really makes me feel bad I’m 17 and I weigh 175 lbs but my depression has cause so many insecurities within me and it kinda feel like a black hole. I don’t if anyone else feels like this I wanted to vent but If anyone does feel like this I am here for you❤️

[Pieces99]

Hi there. I was in depression for two years. The feeling of lost and a hole consuming you is the worst ever. But you know what, I tried ending my life twice but I failed. This makes me think that maybe some higher entity up there doesn't want me to die after all. The point is that I found my hope. You need yours. Once I started eating so much and my mom pointed it out, I felt bad but I thought why not get fit and love my body for it. I exercise and eat well. I fell in love with exercise and I love my body. Sure I notice the flaws too but the thinking that I have positive physical points too I get happy again. I would suggest you should look your self in the mirror daily. At first, the thoughts would be negative, you will point out flaws but then think why see the negative when there is positive too? And exercise gives you a way to vent out and makes you fit. I hated myself for so many years and compared with others all the time. It's of no benefit because I end up getting hurt. Now I love myself so much that I don't need any one. Hope this would help you.

[nanavisca in reply to Pieces99]

To start with I’m glad you’re still here and It does suck feeling lost. Thank you so much for the advice I really want to start going to the gym I started a couple times it Just made me feel uncomfortable due to the fact that I didn’t know what I was doing and felt out of place but I think I might start to get into it and motivate myself thank you so much!

[Pieces99 in reply to nanavisca]

Trust me, you would love yourself when you would see the desired results. Keep fighting and don't let depression win.

[nanavisca in reply to Pieces99]

Thank you so much I mean that deeply💓

[pink318]

Hello,

I have a friend who used to be overweight when he was in high school but when she started college she decided to lose weight. I noticed big changes in her and when I asked her she told me that she goes to the gym and she starts to eat healthy food. She also mentioned that she eats less carbohydrates and drinks plenty of water.

I’m sorry you feel this way. Try to avoid negative self-talk and be gentle to yourself. Try not to focus on the negatives. It’s good that you started going to the gym. Take care of yourself, eat healthy and have enough sleep. Please keep us posted. God bless.

[nanavisca in reply to pink318]

Thank you so much I’m really happy for your friend and I will try to keep you updated thank you for your positive energy it means a lot ❤️