My life

[Music2000]

I've had depression for a long time I feel that I want to talk to somebody but I dont know who to talk to so I wanted to get thing of my chest so I'm trying here. I dont feel like I'm loved by anyone I'm starting to feel that i cant be loved I feel like my life doesnt have any meaning like its empty,I feel like if I died today nothing will change yeah some people may get sad for few days then nothing will change like I'm worthless I'm lost and I dont know what to do

[amberbily]

Oh my gosh Music2000, that is so not true. I don’t even know you, but I would be sad. You are not alone. Feel free to talk to me, I’m no expert and I’m very broken. I suffer from anxiety and depression for years. Lately, all aspects of my issues have increased significantly. However, there are so many people who don’t understand what people like us suffer from an illness just like MS, it just happens and we have no control over it. There are times I feel the same as you do, however I have a great support system. At the moment, I’m so sad, depressed, anxious, overwhelmed, I feel so alone and feel like everyone is suffering right now, I’m just being a burden.

You are not worthless! If you’ve been dealing with this for some time now I know you are strong, determined, brave, and worth much more than you think.

Breath my dear.... nice deep breaths then exhale slowly while letting all that “bad” thoughts leave your head. Do that several times, when you exhale each time think of the positive things (sunshine, the warmth on your back, the cool breeze...)

[Music2000 in reply to amberbily]

Thanks alot for your support the feeling hits me sometimes for a few days then I forget about it but it keeps coming back I just wanted to get it off my chest hopefully things will get better

[amberbily in reply to Music2000]

venting is good, so don’t stop. Sometimes I vent to my girlfriend, husband, etc and say I don’t expect a reply or help... I got this but getting it off my chest helps

[bonkers65]

I've been depressed/anxious a long time too. And I don't really have any family and maybe only one friend, so if I were to die not many people would mourn either. My depression is kinda like yours too in that it comes and goes. I'm in therapy and just started a new med which seems to be helping some. I wish you the best and keep on venting.

[Bobatea]

I'm so sorry that you're going through a tough time. Depression is a nasty beast. Please know that you are loved and you have a purpose. Just because it's hard to see it right now, it doesn't mean it's not true. May you find people that care for you, love you and support you. All the best my friend!

[JkBauer]

Hello Music2000,

Nothing could be farther from the truth. You are loved dearly, you are valuable and have much to give to help others. - Do you mind if I make an observation? I love your name on here "Music 2000", To me that says that you either are a musician or really are involved with music in some way. I love music too! However, I am not musically inclined. My sister has this gift where she can hear a song and then she can sit at the piano and have it picked out within 5 minutes. Music comes easily to her. Ever since we were kids, I wished that I had that gift. But, I have been given a different gift than her. I love working with Special Needs kids and families who are struggling with their home environment. - You have something special, a talent, a gift. Something unique only made for you! That you can share with others. Have you ever gone out and volunteered your time? I.E; serving food at the mission? going to the hospital and visiting with children and the elderly or a nursing home and take your music to cheer them up? My mom used to take her accordion on Fridays and during the weekend and any other specified days to a local community center to play for the seniors so they could dance and to the nursing home for those who were on hospice and were not going to be around much longer due to health complications. She, had been strong and healthy and sharp all of her life, and then she got pneumonia one winter, she ended up getting some other complications as well. Today, she has had to give up all that she loves, her music, her horses, farm life... She has become sad and lonely and depressed. But now, she is coming back with a new spirit, she can attitude! - I know that you can have the same as her, "You Can!" You have got this, you can do this! You are an overcomer! Have you ever tried going to see a pastor? They have great resources, advice, and counsel. He can also get you set up with an excellent support group. Know that I am praying for you!!! - There is a song l think really speaks volumes of truth and love. Here is a clip of it, I hope that you will soak it up and know that you are loved by all of us as well. "Chin Up!"

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