Beyond Depressed

[ashlynsabioso]

If life could throw me more curve balls it would.

On the 15 March my girlfriend (yes I said girlfriend) of 14 months broke up with me through text messaging. She told me why. She had slept with three other people and fell in love with a forth. Not nice.

My father was in hospital was discharged two weeks early for his safety. He’s 81 years young and lives alone

My dog was diagnosed today with cancer

I’m trying to do my own course of WRAP and CBT but it’s so hard

Most days I want to die

I’m so lost

I hate my life

[Mathewsmith]

I know it not easy but just think of the people who are worse off and suddenly your situation is not as bad.

You Dad is still around at 81 years old treasure the moment you have with him. I lost my mother two months ago i would do anything to have her back.

Your girlfriend dumped you by text. So many people never find love you did. However from what you said she probably did you a favour why waste any more of your valuable time with someone you cannot trust.

Your dog had cancer thats sad but you have a chance to be with your dog at this time.

Life will always go throw bad periods we have to ride them out and appreciate what we have.

Depression is an illness and it lies to us. All we can do is challenge it and ride over it.

[Agora1 in reply to Mathewsmith]

A very wise response Mathewsmith. Nothing lasts forever. We must embrace

what we have in the Moment. xx

[ashlynsabioso in reply to Agora1]

True nothing lasts forever except the pain

[Agora1 in reply to ashlynsabioso]

And even pain, in time, will become bearable. xx

I'm sorry that you are hurting so much right now.

[ashlynsabioso in reply to Agora1]

Thank uou

[Agora1 in reply to ashlynsabioso]

Talking about your emotional hurt can help with healing.

We are here to listen. You are never alone. xx

[Snowcap9 in reply to ashlynsabioso]

Yes, the pain lasts but it does diminish and you learn to live with it. Case in point my partner (Rainy) lost her daughter (Becky) at 31 to breast cancer. When she died, of course, Rainy was broken up and grieving. Mentioning Becky's name would send her into tears. Now 7 years later (I know a long time) she can even hold a conversation about Becky and her illness and death.

It's not that Rainy isn't saddened by Becky's death, that will always be there, but she can deal with it better today.

[ashlynsabioso in reply to Mathewsmith]

I thought we were good but nope. I have been through so much with her emotionally supportively and more and to be treated like crap.

[Hidden in reply to ashlynsabioso]

My thoughts and prayers are with you. My husband divorced me 9 years ago because he had an affair and ended up marrying her. I felt like I fell off the earth. I was so depressed I did not want to live anymore. Being in that dark place was very scary. I started going to church and brought Jesus into my life. Keep in mind He will never hurt you in anyway. You are much better off than you think considering what your girlfriend did.

[ashlynsabioso in reply to Hidden]

That is very sad to hear. Yes I am in a dark place and at this time there is no light. I keep going. I never saw this coming. We got along so well never argued. Never got mad. I supported her through three suicide attempts, I help her come off of street drugs, I even put my life on hold and temporarily lived in her house supporting her recovery. And there is more. To have this happen is brutal.

[Hidden in reply to ashlynsabioso]

The best way to look at it is God took you out of a bad situation because she gave into temptation from Satan. You did what you could to support her and care for her. God will send you a special lady in time. Have faith and belief. God loves you

[Eagle12]

I'm sorry you are dealing with so much loss. Take it one day at a time. I wish you happiness and contentment.

[Want2BHappy3]

Sorry for all that you’re going through. We all get overwhelmed at times, you have to take a step back sometimes and sort things out. At least you’re dads in a good place. I know it hurts about the girlfriend, nothing you can do about that. There will be others. You need to distract yourself. Everything will be fine time will heal this, be patient.

[Snowcap9]

The way she left you was not good. There is no good way to break up. Often the partner doesn't see it happening. What you to help her straighten out her life was truly great. It gave her the strength to leave a relationship she did not want. In the end, you're not there yet, it is better to end a one-sided relationship (even if you did not know it was one-sided) than to keep it up and make (eventually) everyone unhappy. Think of this as short-term pain for long-term gain.

[Hidden]

If you ever want to talk then PM me. Good luck

[Spooky99]

I’m sorry to hear this. I know it feels like there’s nothing to live for right now. But that won’t last forever. I’ve been there. It will pass. But meanwhile focus on your dog and dad. Try to think of a few things your grateful for even if they are tiny stupid things!!! There’s always someone worse and someone better. Take care of you. Xo

[Dinogirl89]

I’m so sorry all of this has happened to you. That’s rough but YOU got this! Go for a walk or run! Or even scream! It helps me. Is there something you like to do that takes your mind off stuff??

[c-mac]

Man, that sounds really tough. You might have to go to lengths to do things to make yourself feel better. What kinds of things made you happy before all this? I had a really rough patch in the last couple of years and went all the way back to middle school before I could find something that I used to love (reading teenage-level fantasy and sci fi books), and I set up a date to do that once a day. I've also used hot baths with nice music and a candle to relax and feel cared for. I personally find that just watching TV doesn't cut it for me, though it may for you. And just eating a bunch of chocolate (I love chocolate) ends up making me feel guilty, too, so that doesn't work as well. Is there something that you can give yourself?

[AZBookmouse]

I’m so sorry you hurt. I don’t have any pearls of wisdom, only that you have survived every horrible day so far. You can get through this too.