Struggling alone

[torresvee38]

I broke up with my fiancé of over 10 years. It was a rough and exhausting relationship but I finally had the courage to put myself first. It was not an easy decision. Especially seeing as that I moved in upstairs from him. But it was all a one sided relationship, and I knew I deserved better. I deserved love; The punch you in your stomach, can’t stop smiling kind of love. But I did it, It only took me 10 years. I have 2 jobs, so I stayed busy with that, it kept my mind off it. Now with the stay at home order, like many of us I’m going crazy. My mental health was already bad to begin with and now it’s quadrupled.

On top of that, there is an older man that I have intense feelings for at in my work building. We dont know each other that well, but we talk here and there when we have a chance. it’s hard to explain. I was going to take a risk and summon the courage, to ask him. but again this shelter In place. So now I won’t see him, it’ll be two months at least til we go back to work. I always light up when we see each other and feel so happy. I can’t stop thinking of him. I’m lonely, tired and depressed. I’m trying, I’m really trying.

[jsamess]

We all deserve some happiness in our lives . See if you can find him on social media . Don't wait . The moment is now ! Good luck . James

[torresvee38 in reply to jsamess]

Thank you so much! 💜

[ivy0]

You’re not alone! Thank you for sharing. I’m sorry you’re hurting..... it sounds like awful pain. I hope you’ll find your older man and reach out to him in a different way! This would be a unique time and opportunity....... we need each other more than right now. Rooting for you!

[torresvee38 in reply to ivy0]

Thank you so much, it means a lot to me! 💜

[BlueMoon29]

I did the same thing about 2 yrs ago: broke up with my ex of 7 yrs and we also still had to share the same house. Thankfully we remained friends (I'm actually stuck quarantining here lol).

As for your feelings for this man at work I say definitely go for it. Life is too short to waste on what-ifs. Jsamess idea about social media is great. Try it!

[torresvee38 in reply to BlueMoon29]

Thank you so much. 💜 I’m still scared to, but I’ll consider it! Lol

[BlueMoon29 in reply to torresvee38]

I'm not sure how old you are but I can tell you I wasted a lot of years (and still am) being too scared. I don't know how to get it into my own head that we only get one life and to go for it. I hope you do and I hope you get everything you ever dreamed of!

[torresvee38 in reply to BlueMoon29]

💜💜💜