What does depression feel like to you? Do any of you wonder sometimes, if they just imagine what they are going through? Am I the only one who feels like riding an endless Rollercoaster with no control over your ups and downs?
I was going so good for a while. Feeling happy. Kind of at peace. Starting to accept me and myself a bit more each day. And then all of a sudden I just felt shit. Nothing triggered me. At least nothing obvious. And I just hate myself so much these days it's hard to take. One moment I am okay believing everything is going to be alright. Next moment I'm pissed at everyone and everything lashing out. Then I'm okay again. Just to find myself crying on the bathroom floor wanting to die just hours later. Is it normal? Please tell me anyone else feels the same way... Because every time I feel better it feels like I'm just overreacting.. Like I only imagine everything I am feeling.. I know my depression is real. But I usually feel depressed for weeks and I don't have these constant ups and downs.. It's driving me crazy and it's really hard on me and my relationship.. Even though I can't change my current situation it would be nice to hear I'm not alone with this.. And that things are gonna get better... Thanks for listening guys
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Hello Mone, you are not alone in feeling the way you do. I am going through too many mood swings too. One moment I'm happy, then moments later, I am in a darker place. I am just too tired of living this way. I am just praying to God to help me.
I understand the feeling of being okay for a brief moment, then the sky falling around you the next. I'm struggling to control my emotions and as a result of it, I'm ruining the first relationship where I've been in love. My advice is to seek help, be very very open about what's happening. Establish with trusted loved ones, friends, therapists, etc, that you feel out of control. That you need help grounding yourself. It's not going to be easy. But you can do it. It's going to suck for a while, but it will get better.
Thank you. I've been seeing a therapist for quite some time now and it's good. She's on vacation so maybe that's why I'm spiraling cause I haven't seen her in a while. But I'm getting the help I need. It is just so hard sometimes anyway. My husband for example really wants to be there for me but doesn't know how and I just can't open up to him at all so I practically don't talk to anyone really and it makes it so much harder for me. I just hope I'll be able to open up more in the future it would help me so much. But thank you for your reply it is so good to know that I am not alone.
You are not alone. Your emotions are normal for major depression. For me, I often find myself profoundly sad for really no reason. Then I realize that God put me on this planet for a reason, which is to try and be a good steward or servant for others. The longer I can shift my focus onto service rather than on my problems the better I do. That being said, please get help immedietly if you have any thoughts of harming yourself. Bottom line: you are not alone in your feelings and God has a purpose for your life-one that will enrich your life and others. I will say a prayer for you. May you feel peace soon.
Thank you so much. Honestly I am not a believer but still your words really calmed me down a lot. So thank you. I'm gonna stay strong and pull through!
Hi, your depression is very real and relatable. For a long time I was going through exactly what you describe, and I didn't realise what was happening to me or the people closest to me. It affected us all. My young son was upset seeing his mummy like that, and my partner told me that I needed to see a doctor urgently. I did, and was put on setraline. I have been on it for some time now and my symptoms are manageable. I still get bad days, but nowhere near the terrible extremes before I was on medication. You are not alone x
Thank you for sharing. You are definitely not alone. As you said depression is a disease and not something we can control. It is a chemical imbalance that seems to get worse around my time of the month.
Are you in counseling and do you take medication for your depression? I have struggled for over 22 years with depression. Medication helps some and counseling, but what has really helped is positive self-talk. I have a few techniques I use to help me when I begin to spiral.
1)Becoming aware of what you need through self-care and personal nourishment. Take time for yourself - you are worth it. Like taking walks, baths, massages, mani/pedi/, listening to uplifting music/sermons and anything that makes you feel refreshed and renewed.
2) The 557 breathing technique is take 5 deep breaths in while thinking good thoughts about yourself like I matter, I am special, I am strong and then hold the breaths for the count of 7 focusing on those words about yourself, then let out the breath slowly for 5 seconds letting go of any anxious, self-defeating, unhealthy thoughts. I do this one to three times a sitting.
3)The gratitude journal is writing down something good every morning and night something that went well in the day, or something I appreciate about myself. Taking our focus off of the anxiety and depression and focusing on positive uplifting things really helps. What you think is what you believe. So thinking uplifting things you believe those things but the reverse is true - thinking negative self-defeating things, you will believe those.
4) Emotional Freedom Tapping -bit.ly/2Xvj5BP tap on specific pressure points while you repeat positive uplifting things to yourself.
I also pray daily, know God is with me and remind myself I will feel better and this depressed feeling is temporary. I will be praying for you. Feel free to pm me if you'd like to chat. Hugs and God Bless
Thanks so much this is really helpful. I see a therapist regularly and I tried meds. But you are absolutely right, I've tried being more aware of myself and practiced as much self-love as possible and it really has helped a lot of times. But it isn't easy to push negative thoughts away and replace them with positive ones. But it's a road worth taking as it doesn't just help with depression it makes your life easier in general. Being at peace with yourself is one of the most beautiful things. I have a long way to go but your message reminded me of how important it is to keep going. Thank you so much. I'll also try your breathing techniques. Thanks again.
I really like how you wrote it is a road worth taking. I think the most important things to remember is you are special and even though you struggle you matter and are important. I tell myself often this is temporary and I will feel better. I try super hard not to be hard on myself and give myself grace. I can't do everything all the time or be 100% because no one is perfect. God only wants us to do the best we can at each moment. Some moments are better than others. Prayer really helps me and learning to let go and give myself a break. I am here if you ever want to chat. Hugs
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