I just need help

[Purplepuppy23]

I’ve been suffering from anxiety and depression since I was 15 when my then boyfriend began to physically and mentally abuse me. I spent 4 years dealing with it. I have since just pushed it down but in the last couple days, my husband has told me I need to get help or he’s going to leave me. I don’t know what to do. I’ve tried medication but it always made me sleep the day away. I just want to feel better about my life.

[kenster1]

hi sorry to hear this yeah I think you should seek help but at the same time I don't think your husband should be threatening to leave he should be encouraging you to get the right support you need and deserve.

[Amethyst1986 in reply to kenster1]

Totally agree with kenster1. You need support and encouragement through this hard time.

[Hidden]

My depression is slowly killing me I feel dead in SIDE. I had no love or affection my whole life. My mother should never of had children.Beat me every chance she got and my father whipping with the belt.Growing up abusive boyfriends that's how I grew up but I got all the emotions and I ached for someone to love me! It seems the nicer I am bad things happen to me.Being stuck home know I'm glad I'm not around people everybody is so evil these days.Anyway I'm miserable no one texts me and I have just been crying out of nowhere. I'm going to die miserable and alone.I ask God when will I find peace and happiness on earth.

[senorab12 in reply to Hidden]

You’re not alone, I used to feel this way but then one day I got tired of it. You didn’t have the love a person should have, that’s why you’re looking for love so badly. I am too. You need to solve this issues otherwise you won’t be able to move on. Here you can talk about whatever it’s bothering whenever it bothers you. We care for you here. I do.

[Hidden in reply to senorab12]

In a million years I never would of thought my life would turn out like this.Im 55 still feel like I am in my thirties. I LIVE WITH MY parents again my ex screwed me not all women get what they want in a divorce My and I use the term lightly Boyfriend makes miserable and very ugly. He is13 years older than me and I cry the time but then I think what the hell am I crying over this old man for .Just wishing for love and effection.

[senorab12 in reply to Hidden]

Yeah I get where you’re coming from but you’re not ugly and you deserve someone that makes you feel the most beautiful person ever because you are. You cry because he doesn’t give you what you want.

Stay strong, better days are ahead of you I know it.

[Ollyvie]

Hello Purplepuppy, am sorry to hear what you have been dealing with all these years. I pray and hope that things get better for you soon. You deserve a better life. You deserve to be cared for and loved. Sometimes you have to be straight forward with people as to what you will tolerate in your life.

First of all, you have to take care of you and the anxiety so you can better handle him. If you have survived the anxiety and depression up till now, then you have got what it takes to overcome this. I know therapy or counselling also help. I suggest you contact one as soon as possible. If you need help getting one in your area you can let me know and will see how I can help. Check this out and I think you might find it helpful bit.ly/2X3K7Or . Am also here whenever you need to chat, sending hugs and prayers your way.