Hi, I posted here about a month ago. I have been struggling with anxiety for over 6 years now it started as a simple fear of flying and it has expanded to become not being able to be alone. I live with my parents and all my relitives are back home witch is Iran. I can't have my parents out of my sight they can't travel because of me.
Today I found out that my mom has to go back home for an emergency this week. Since the moment I found out which has been three hours . I can't talk, eat , I know she has to go but I know I can't cope with it. It's gonna kill me , thinking about has made me paralyzed now imagining that she will actually leave I don't know . They keep on asking me when they should get the ticket for and it's like asking someone we want to kill you , would like you prefer today or tomorrow.
My mom had absolutely no omption, she had not traveled because of me for so long and I know if she could she wouldn't go.
I woke up today not knowing this, I had the perfect day planned for myself but as soon as I heard the news my day was over , I have not been able to get out of bed and I don't have the strength to do it so. I just want all of this to be a dream hoping to wake up from it any moment.