Really bad night

My life in the past year has been so terrible and I try to keep staying strong but I literally can’t take it anymore. I feel like I realized that I can’t count on anyone but myself. No one ever helps me with anything but then I’m expected to bend over backwards for everyone else.

Tonight all I needed was a simple favor .. just someone to help me move a piece of furniture. My boyfriends poker game with his friends was more important, and my parents flipped out on me saying that I don’t think about them and “ they have a life”. I ended up doing everything myself and I am currently sitting in the dark by myself drinking wine and crying. I don’t know what I ever did to deserve to be treated like I’m a burden to people.

I just want to run away and never see anyone ever again. I feel like all I ever do these days is cry and hate my life. I have no support at all whatsoever.

[lizbeth_v]

You are important to a great number of people. I’m terribly sorry that your loved ones have left you when you needed them. You are not a burden to anyone and I know you feel that way but it’s not true. I wish I could be there to help you with your needs. I hope you realize that you are worth it. Take care

[CaringNBeaten]

I know how you feel. I don't have anyone to depend on either. My only son is a narcissist who treats me abusively so I keep myself away from him. I don't really have many anyone would call a close or good friend. Spent my life as a scapegoat and beating post. No one to help but everyone to tell me what's wrong with me.

[Hidden in reply to CaringNBeaten]

I literally feel like I have no legislate friends. There is always those people that say “ I’m always here for you when you need me”, but when I need them they ignore me and def are not there. These people have proven this to me time and time again. I feel like everyone just sucks and it’s impossible to find a real true friend.

[anxietymike216]

It's heartbreaking to hear this of what people do other people, I'm new to site but not new to hear all this as of I am going threw very similar things But I sit and tell myself im not burdening any of my family members nor friends. I seeked out my mother who left me at age 8 and did not see her until i had problems 28 now. If the people you are around treating you like this than they need some help themselves, I will pray for you and if ever need to talk reach out it helps.

[Hidden in reply to anxietymike216]

Thanks. I feel so alone a lot and like I have no real friends at all that would ever be there for me. I can’t ask my parents for any favors or they flip out and say that I don’t think about my family. But then I drove them around to Boston and other far places because they are too scared to drive. They are fully capable of driving but I did it for them because I care.. but to return the favor? No.

[anxietymike216 in reply to Hidden]

Yea i get the same cold love from my father and brother i completely understand. If you are truly unhappy with them and wont understand you id reach out to other family or try to get away if you can possibly.

[Hidden in reply to anxietymike216]

I don't really have much family. Basically my parents and sister are all I have. My parents aren't bad people but they make a big deal out of everything and constantly get mad at me about everything. Makes me feel like all I do is bother them.