having a bad night

[frailstateofmind44]

I want to ask for support or encouragement on here but my thoughts are so disorganized I don’t even know exactly what’s wrong. I feel overwhelmed just being alive and have so many emotions I can’t regulate. I can feel myself slipping and all I want is to get ahead of it. I’m miserable, frustrated, hurt, irritable, anxious, whatever the list goes on. And in addition to this it’s now dark by 4:30 and the seasonal affective is starting to hit. I’m tired of just making it through every day in survival mode. I hope everyone is well and I’m grateful I can come here to vent. thank you

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[CLB1125]

I guess if no one replies I feel like no one is listening to me. I need validation. I need to know someone cares how I am feeling. It’s a personal thing for each person. It’s hard to support each other if we don’t respond to posts. That’s just my point of view.

[Alpakka123]

Hello,Please vent away! I have to write or else things churn away in my head and it drives me nuts. It's okay if you don't know what's wrong, or if your thoughts are so jumbled that you don't know which way is up. I also need that outside validation. If you go back into your post and lock it, more people might reply. Let me know if you need help with this.

It starts getting dark at 4pm over here, and it really messes with my mood.

[Eggy386]

I have the same thoughts in my head. I relate it to being in a body of water, and barely keeping my head above the surface. Now and then maybe there’s floating debris I can rest on. For a while I was able to float on something, and much more of myself was out of the water. But it broke. And here I am again, treading water.

and as you said, we’re now going into the winter where it’s dark and miserable. Sunset to clock in at 4:33pm tonight in NY

We may have more things in common, if you want to talk

[frailstateofmind44 in reply to Eggy386]

Thank you so much for this reply. This is exactly how I feel and you described it perfectly. I really struggle to identify or understand the causes behind my feelings but sometimes I think there’s just too much contributing. I definitely feel like I’m constantly treading and then I’ll hit a point where it all becomes too much I just want to shut down and isolate from the world.

I live in Pennsylvania right on the NY border so I’m also dealing with the same darkness too.

I’m hanging in there a bit better today and I hope you’re having a good day too. Thank you so much again for your support, it really does help and make a difference. Sending love x