having a bad night

[frailstateofmind44]

I want to ask for support or encouragement on here but my thoughts are so disorganized I don’t even know exactly what’s wrong. I feel overwhelmed just being alive and have so many emotions I can’t regulate. I can feel myself slipping and all I want is to get ahead of it. I’m miserable, frustrated, hurt, irritable, anxious, whatever the list goes on. And in addition to this it’s now dark by 4:30 and the seasonal affective is starting to hit. I’m tired of just making it through every day in survival mode. I hope everyone is well and I’m grateful I can come here to vent. thank you

[HaikuYou]

Hug.

Virtual hug

[Dogcatnomaybehopeso]

I get it. I vent here myself- quite a bit.

If someone replies- that is very nice- but definitely not necessary.

Maybe better if someone doesn’t bc then I like always reply/- or try to- but I think ok and nice.

How about you?

I guess i don’t know it is necessary-to reply? You?

[CLB1125 in reply to Dogcatnomaybehopeso]

I guess if no one replies I feel like no one is listening to me. I need validation. I need to know someone cares how I am feeling. It’s a personal thing for each person. It’s hard to support each other if we don’t respond to posts. That’s just my point of view.

[Dogcatnomaybehopeso in reply to CLB1125]

as far as people responding-

CLB: I don’t always need replies. Just to be able to say my piece-.( sometimes again and again) is enough for me -much, most if not all of the time.

When I first started on this site I had mega responses- I definitely have the feeling there is care-.- a lot of care-❤️‍🩹❤️💕

People have to have a life best possible- I do not want to interfere w what someone is trying to accomplish for a given day- it is hard to accomplish abt anything some days for me.

Kudos to those that keep on trying.

I am usually quite good; I am fortunate in that I have a good life. I know too well this is not everyone’s situation.

If people want to comment - yes- this is very nice-.but people have to think and take care of themselves first -and I usually am good. I have a lot in my life to be grateful for.

Jusr the same thank you for your reply; it is appreciated. I am good!😍

But you take care of you! ❤️❤️‍🩹💕😍🍀

[Dogcatnomaybehopeso]

I hope you have a better day today. 😊🤗

I don’t know if this will help you-.but life is short; we only have one.

I have a sister who is terminally ill. I think of her and I think I am so lucky 🍀. I have life..

One other thing if you could find one thing in your life that is positive-.focus on that w intense gratitude if possible. For me this sense of gratitude grows to contentment, slices of happiness show through.

Not for you?

I believe there is a God. Though it may not seem like God is good to you right now-there is the future; the future if you can’t find anything now, hopefully the future should show some goodness-. Prayers help me. 😊

You?

[Dogcatnomaybehopeso]

I replied to you, frailstateofmind, above-

I don’t always get this right- 🌙😖😔

[Alpakka123]

Hello,Please vent away! I have to write or else things churn away in my head and it drives me nuts. It's okay if you don't know what's wrong, or if your thoughts are so jumbled that you don't know which way is up. I also need that outside validation. If you go back into your post and lock it, more people might reply. Let me know if you need help with this.

It starts getting dark at 4pm over here, and it really messes with my mood.

[Eggy386]

I have the same thoughts in my head. I relate it to being in a body of water, and barely keeping my head above the surface. Now and then maybe there’s floating debris I can rest on. For a while I was able to float on something, and much more of myself was out of the water. But it broke. And here I am again, treading water.

and as you said, we’re now going into the winter where it’s dark and miserable. Sunset to clock in at 4:33pm tonight in NY

We may have more things in common, if you want to talk

[frailstateofmind44 in reply to Eggy386]

Thank you so much for this reply. This is exactly how I feel and you described it perfectly. I really struggle to identify or understand the causes behind my feelings but sometimes I think there’s just too much contributing. I definitely feel like I’m constantly treading and then I’ll hit a point where it all becomes too much I just want to shut down and isolate from the world.

I live in Pennsylvania right on the NY border so I’m also dealing with the same darkness too.

I’m hanging in there a bit better today and I hope you’re having a good day too. Thank you so much again for your support, it really does help and make a difference. Sending love x